08/21/2025
💗💗💗 Let’s remind her of not only her outward beauty, but inward, and her strength! 💗💗💗
From Lizz:
Cancer changes people. It sculpts you into someone who understands more deeply, listens more intently, hurts more often, appreciates more daily, cries more easily, hopes more desperately, loves more openly, and lives more passionately.
Cancer is also trauma. It is painful. It is scary. It is life changing. Each person on their cancer journey will look different too.
I get that a lot. The compliments and how good I look and I can’t tell you all how fortunate I am. The modern medicine with my treatment to help me from getting sick is so helpful. It’s not that I don’t love the compliments, because I whole heartedly do but lately the compliments mean a little less to me. I miss the old Lizz that would receive compliments on how my eyelashes were so thick they looked false, or how beautiful my hair was because I keep it natural and leave my subtle grays or how my eyebrows looked so perfect. It’s not that I don’t appreciate the new compliments on my appearance now but to me they are different now. They are for the sick Lizz and not the old Lizz. I have been missing the old Lizz a lot lately. She had so much energy, was a little more fearless with a fresh horse, could stay up late watching Harry Potter and still wake up at 5 feeling refreshed. She didn’t have to stretch out slowly in the mornings, or walk slow and take breaks because she was out of breath, she ran freely, kept up with the fast pace walkers, and went all day plus some before sitting down at night. I’m just not used to this new Lizz and it’s been getting to me lately. I do appreciate her a lot though, like I said at the beginning, cancer changes a person and I feel like a different person who really does have all the emotions. I’m stronger than I thought not physically but emotionally and mentally, I’m better at either openly crying or holding it back because of sheer awe, I laugh more often at my kids whether they are having a meltdown or just being down right silly, I offer to help more because I genuinely care about making people feel loved, and I don’t take for granted a good hug from anyone.
Cancer is no match for the grace of God and lately I think He has been trying to reach out to me and make me realize that I am not alone. Sometimes it’s just really hard to listen to Him when it’s not just a txt on my phone or a card in the mail. I am glad I am not alone. I have Tanner and my kids, my family and Tanners, and so so many people far and wide not letting me forget that they are there supporting me. Thank you everyone for loving the old Lizz and still supporting, loving and fighting for the new Lizz ♥️m
