01/30/2026
Current mood.
A couple weeks ago, I went with my kids to see āDavidā. There was a moment in there that Saul was ANGRY that David would be the one anointed to take over the crown. And David saidā¦Saul! I donāt WANT your throne! I felt that in my bones.
I donāt chose to be a provider in the oncology space. God made it CLEAR I was to step into thisā¦and some days, Iāll be honest - I donāt want it. I just want to go back to helping people conceive where everything is a celebration!
David started as a Shepherd. His days were made to protect the sheep. He would take down bears and lions with his slingshotā¦a training that would prepare him to take on Goliath.
David wasnāt give the crown outright. He had to be trusted with the little before he was trusted with the big. He started protecting his sheep. Then he was given Goliath. Then Saul tried chasing him down to kill him for 10 years and THEN He was made king.
David would go on to be one of the greatest kings, though he was imperfect. He would actually kill a dude so he could sleep with his wife. He made so many mistakesā¦yet his lineage would bring hope back to Israelā¦and from his bloodline, Christ would be born.
Today, I feel like David. I feel like the enemy is trying to come after my sheep with fear, with tactics that they wonāt get better, with discouraging scansā¦and honestly Iām sick of it.
As I was praying over my clinic last night, I just wept. I felt the Fathers heart for His kids. That He knows how much they are afraid, and hurting. That He grieves with them in their suffering.
And it hit meā¦I will always study and try to be a better clinician. But sometimes my battles are better fought for these sheep Iāve been given on my knees. That the enemy has NO PLACE in this clinic. That these wolves can go pick on another clan. The anointing and authority Iāve been given to care for these sweet souls trumps any attacks of the enemy. And I stand on the authority of Christā¦and fear has to FLEE in Jesusā name.
The devil picked the wrong crew to mess with. These prayers will shake the gates of hell. And knowā¦if you are trusting me with your care, you are lovedā¦you are prayed overā¦and you are His.
Him. You. Me. We.
Nicole
