Robbin's Cancer Journey:Faith Over Fear

01/17/2024

No matter what you are going through,God Is More than able!

07/31/2023

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05/16/2023

08/19/2022

NED.....Visits go from every 3 months to every 4!

05/19/2022

Blood work,tests,exam- NED ( No evidence of disease) According to Dr Garg's PA- " A plus all the way".❤The only thing is,I have to get a grip on my anxiety and panic attacks. Cancer PTSD and Trauma are very real.
I am so very thankful for all of you! ❤❤❤❤ " Thank you,Lord for your blessings on me"❤

05/17/2022

Snapped this photo at CTCA last year during lab work. A wonderful reminder. Going back this week for another 3 month check up and evaluation. Prayers would certainly be appreciated.🧡

04/27/2022

Thinking about Monday afternoon when my biopsy results arrived. I quickly closed the window that alerted me they were ready.

Each time the thought popped up in my mind to read them,I quickly went into Scarlett O'Hara mode. You know,the old, " I'll think about it tomorrow".

Yet,a still small voice,inside was reminding me of the days following July 28,2021 at 3:45 PM when I found out that it was a very strong possibility that I had Endometrial cancer.

It reminded me of all the days and nights of uncertainty,fear and anxiety leading up to the day,September 19,2021, that my Gyno- Oncologist at CTCA walked into my room with a Chaplin and said the word I had prayed not to hear. MALIGNANT.

It reminded me of the days,16 of them as a matter of fact when once again I was back at CTCA to see Dr Garg and find out the Stage and Grade of my cancer along with if I would need chemo and or radiation.

I had watched the way my Mother and then Daddy fought cancer. Losing him still very fresh in my heart and mind.

All the support I had received from my friends had surrounded me with a beautiful warmth.

I had resisted the urge to cry all the way to Newnan that morning. I did okay until Sue Bragg Whitley came up to me on the bench where I was sitting while waiting for Ron to park the truck. I was okay until she hugged me and the tears flowed. She insisted again,like she had a few hours earlier in text message that everything was going to be fine. Her faith gave me strength and her spirit bore witness with mine.

So very thankful for praying friends that speak words of faith over me!!!!

Last night,nearing midnight,urged on to open it with words of faith from family and friends,I finally opened it only to receive a message saying the document was not supported by the My Chart app. I sent a message to Dr Arledge explaining and went to bed.

Tuesday morning was a reply letting me know that poly and tissue biopsy were both NORMAL!

After reading the results,I had a nice long talk with God. I apologized for doubting. No matter which way,good or bad,I KNOW. I KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW.......GOD HAS ME!

I am a work in progress!

Corrie Ten Boom is one of my heroes!!!

04/25/2022

Hearing you have cancer changes you. From the moment you hear those words,you and your life are never the same. That doesn't have to be a bad thing!

Life is precious. I have learned to savor each moment. I have also learned not to waste my time and energy on things that don't matter and people who don't care about me.

Support can be shown so many ways. Calls,texts,messages on social media,prayers,etc. It is in the storms of life that you find out who really cares and who never did. That is a gift!

People that claimed to love and care about me that I never heard from during my cancer diagnosis and treatment, I will still pray for but I will never again invest myself in you.

I am a work in progress. By no means am I perfect. I make mistakes every day. I have feelings and they are still at times very tender and close to the surface. I don't shove things down inside or compartmentalize emotions as I once did. I am more in tune with myself and emotions than ever before. If that makes others uncomfortable,I won't apologize.

I am still mentally and emotionally healing from the loss of my brother and Daddy among other things.

Have my second 3 month post cancer diagnosis coming up next month. I would be dishonest if I said it didn't bother me. I get concerned. Anxious. Afraid. But,I also remember how far God has brought me. I remember all the days and nights when it was just me and Him. I try not to dwell on the fear or anxiety,but it is still there and no sense in denying it.

God sees each tear. He knows my fears. I am still learning to lean.

04/23/2022

After a cancer diagnosis,waiting on test and biopsy results takes on a new meaning.

Love and cherish the ones that mentally and emotionally support you.

02/22/2022

Friday,February 18th was a big day. My first 3 month,post op appointment. This will be part of my life for the next 2 years. Then every 6 months afterwards for 3 years.

All kind of thoughts go through my mind. Every new,or old ache and pain carries a question mark with it.

Has IT returned?

Bloodwork and exam was good.

NED- NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE ✋✋✋✋✋

She has ordered me to get a colonoscopy 🙄Just to be on the safe side. I am due one in the fall anyway,will just do it sooner.

I am so very thankful for CTCA in Newnan.I can't imagine going through the HELL and incompetent care that my precious Daddy received in Anniston,Alabama😡 Because those making the decisions were constantly in his ear about how far Birmingham was.

10/29/2021

At CTCA ATLANTA today. Will find out if Chemo and or radiation is needed.