Rocky Mountain Health and Healing

11/16/2025

Oh Seanie! I feel like a piece of me died when you died. Work has kept me distracted this week but I am not okay. I keep thinking of that night and the sadness/hopelessness you must have felt to make the decision to end your life. What happened that night? Why that night compared to all the other ones you suffered? Why didn't you call me? Why didn't I know how much you were struggling? I kept telling my patients how well you were doing. How proud I was of you. Today marks two weeks that you chose the path you chose. Two weeks ago that my life forever changed. The tears, the prayers, the anger, the acceptance, the decisions, and now my shattered heart. Your suffering has ended and that brings me a little peace. I had a dream about you. Was it you? Did He allow you to come to me so I would know you were okay? You were happy and definitely You! The conversation we had was not Facebook appropriate but I knew it was you 😝 You gave me every grey hair on my head. I worried about you every single day. I prayed for your happiness and wellbeing daily. I prayed for protection from the enemy daily. I did so much work to kick the enemy to the side. He couldn't pe*****te into my life very easily. I built an armor of protection around my body/soul and around my home. I prayed for that same protection for you. I know you tried at times to rebuke the demons that had a hold of you so tightly. I wish I could have been stronger in my prayers to protect you better. The enemy couldn't get to me, so he defeated you to bring me to my knees. I am trying not to be defeated as well. I am praying for protection. I am praying for comfort and peace. But I can feel the anxiety overcoming me when darkness falls. I am hearing the enemy use the guilt and sadness I feel to get ahold of me again. My faith is strong but I am struggling to hold it together. The grief is so powerful at times. Friday at work I couldn't stop looking at my office walls and just crying. You were literally in every inch of my office. It wasn't perfect and I was critical of you. Please know I am sorry. I was so proud of you and I wish I would have shared that proudness with you more. I know your decision was never meant to cause this much pain. And I know you wouldn't want my life to crumble into pieces for this decision. I am trying not to let it! I will be okay. Like yours, my life has not been easy. It has been full of trauma, sadness, and hopelessness at times. But He always picks me up and guides me where I need to be. He will do it again. It will take a lifetime to heal. A mother is never suppose to bury their child. A mother should never see what I saw those few days in the hospital. Walking the halls and praying for either a miracle or for your suffering to end. I wanted to trade you places. I would have in a heartbeat. I would have taken the pain/suffering and judgement if it meant you were okay. If I can have that much love for my earthly child, I cannot imagine the love He has for you. That is how I know you are with him and will have eternal peace. That gives my mama heart a little comfort. I will be okay. Maybe not today and definitely not next week when we have your funeral, but I will be okay. Life will continue. I will focus on my patients and continuing to bring healing to Helena and beyond. I will find/focus on the blessings that have come from this tragedy. I am going to take care of myself better and not work myself to death. I will find things that make me happy. The days will get easier (eventually). But I will never forget you! I carried you for 9 months and spent my life trying to protect you. I know you know that I tried with everything I had. I feel like a failure but I know that is the enemy. Our Father allowed this to happen. I don't get to understand the why at this time, but He allowed the course of events to happen. So I know he has you and will carry me as well. Enjoy the peace up there! Let everyone love you the way you deserved to be love here on earth. Tell everyone up there how much we miss them. Give Paisley a little kiss from me. And please know that we will all be okay here. We love you so much and will miss you always. We will meet again, you just got a head start on us❤️

11/12/2025

I am happy it is Wednesday. The week is going by better than I expected. Being at work has been a great distraction. I cry on the way to work but pull myself together and get through the day. Last night was a difficult night. The waves of sadness hit like a tornado at times.

I had a patient yesterday who expressed their gratefulness for helping to get their body into a healthier state. They were feeling better since our initial appointment. He will lift me up and carry me through this heartbreak. I have a calling to do for Him. This will not break me. It can't! Sean was very proud of my clinic. He was a numbers guy and knew I was not the best business owner. But he was proud of where I started and what my clinic became. He actually painted my new office (picture below). He wanted me to succeed and would never want my sorrow to be the reason my clinic didn't succeed.

It will be a difficult week next week with the funeral. We also have to get his apartment cleaned out, which will break me. But once all of that is over, He will help put my heart back together so I can continue on my path He has paved for me. For those that knew Sean, the funeral will be on November 21st at 1 pm at Country Side Church in Spearfish.

I cannot promise this, but I am thinking this will be my last post on my business page about this tragedy. I will resume positing my regular health related posts after the funeral. Thank you for all the support during this very difficult time. The support and prayers have meant more than you will ever know. We are all struggling but He will get us through this🙏❤️

11/10/2025

After a tragedy like the one I just faced, you have time to think. There is way to much time to think. My pastor called me on Tuesday. I, of course broke into a thousand pieces as I described his injuries and our decision to withdraw care in the next day or so if medical management failed. He said something that stopped me in my tracks. "If this was 40 years ago, would your son still be alive right now". That hit me directly into my soul. Denver Health is an amazing facility. They are a level 1 trauma center and take care of very sick and dying people. They are wonderful at keeping families informed and do it in such a caring way. I have no complaints at all with the care Sean received. He was pumped full of medications, which I didn't like but knew it was a necessity to keep him alive. All the physicians admitted they could keep my son alive for weeks and months doing exactly what we did for the 4 days he was there. But at what cost?

So I have been thinking the last couple of days, are we playing God? Is our life span pre-destined or can we alter that? Was it know to Him all along that Sean would pass on November 6, 2025? Or did his free will alter what He had planned for Sean? Should he have passed on November 2nd but modern medicine kept him alive until the 6th? Did we withdraw care too early and he should have passed weeks, months or years later?

I have been listening to stories of people who had died and were able to return to this earthly home. I actually have two patients that experienced this as well. Their stories are comforting and leave you knowing the peace that comes when we get to heaven. Did modern medicine save all of these people? Or did He let them come back to share the message of the life that can be experienced after death?

The providers at Denver Health kept saying, we have had people with worse brain injuries that survived. Many kept saying it was too early to make any life changing decisions. But the neurologist and neurosurgeon (who didn't have faith) were very black and white. They both expressed the "devastating brain injuries" that would leave Sean blind, unable to speak, likely ventilator dependent, and would require 24/7 care his whole life. The neurosurgeon indicated how they could do everything possible to keep Sean alive. He said many families, especially parents will have them do everything possible. But at the year mark, many (if not all) regret that decision. Their child or family member is not the same person as they were pre-injury. He said most, if they could, would have withdrawn care had they known the final outcome. We knew that Sean would not want to live in a world where someone had to care for him 24/7. But he was alive. He survived an injury most would not have. There were times it felt like Sean was there and other times it felt like he had already passed. The suffering he endured was the worst part of this whole experience.

I know I cannot live in the what ifs. And this post is not about that. It is truly a desire to discuss what the scriptures say. Is our life pre-destined? Was Sean supposed to pass on November 6th from the time he was born? Does modern medicine interfere with His plan for our lives? Do miracles happen because that person's pre-destined time is not up? Or does He change his mind? Maybe we are not supposed to have these answers. Maybe scripture isn't clear. Maybe it doesn't matter. Maybe this is a distraction for my grieving heart so I can get through my first week at work 🤷‍♀️

Let me know your thoughts!

11/08/2025

I made it home yesterday afternoon. It is good to be home but I just feel numb. It feels like such a bad dream. I cannot stop replaying in my head the suffering he endured over the last 8 hours of his life. I am glad he wasn't alone, but the images and the sounds are too much for this mama heart. All the "what ifs" haunt me constantly.

Life will move on, it always does. But I am now a mama of a boy who committed su***de. The "whys" are nauseated and we may never know the answers. The enemy is going to use this tragedy to cause havoc in all of our lives. I am trying hard to rebuke those attempts but it is hard right now.

Sean had his whole life ahead of him. He struggled but he could have lived a very fulfilled life. I wish I would have know what I know today when he was born. I would have done so many things differently that may have prevented so much of his suffering. He didn't open my eyes back then. I wish He had but he didn't. Sean was obviously meant to come into this world for a short time. He left a mark on so many people's hearts.

His funeral will be on the 21st in Spearfish. We really do not have many more details at this time. I will be taking the 19th- thru that weekend off, but will be working all next week. For the patients scheduled this next week, I apologize in advanced. I am going to likely be a very emotional person. It is hard to get through an hour without a memory of some sort.

I was scrolling social media and I found the most fitting song last evening. Beat You There by Will Dempsey. This is going to take a long time to recovery from🥲

Music video by Will Dempsey performing Beat You There. Will Dempsey http://vevo.ly/nXiE63

11/06/2025

Rest in peace my little Seanie❤️ Your suffering has ended. You endured more in your 22 years in this world than is fair. You didn't deserve the life you were given. I fought with everything I had your entire life to make sure life was bearable. I failed miserably most of the time. And we all failed you at the end. I prayed for you daily. I prayed protection over your body and soul. The enemy attacked you repeatedly. I wish I could have been stronger in my prayers to protect you better. I tried dear son! I wanted nothing more than a lifetime of happiness for you and with you. Unfortunately, you found more pain than your body and soul could handle. You were the life of the party. The jokester. You cared deeply. You loved your family. You loved your mama! I always knew if I ever needed anything, you would be the first to come running. I will always remember your laugh. Your smile. I will miss the FaceTime calls watching you cook. I will miss the multiple calls a day. I would have cherished our last call, had I only known. I was often "too busy". I was mad at times. But I thought of you every single day and wanted you to be okay. I wish I would have known you were struggling so badly. I wish I would have known you didn't want to live anymore. I wish you would have called me. I wish some motherly instinct would have overcome me. But it didn't. Life was normal until I saw the message of what had happened. I rushed to your bedside. The last few days have been so hard to watch you suffer like you did. The suffering is over. The torment is over. Peace is surrounding you. You are sitting with Our Father in heaven. Say hi to Riot, Paisley and Lacy. I will love you until the day I die and I will miss you dearly. My heart is broken into a thousand pieces. But I will take that heartbreak knowing you are finally at peace. We will meet again some day. Until then....don't give them too much heck up there😝

I love you Seanie❤️ March 14, 2003 to November 6, 2025.

11/04/2025

We are going on day 3 of this tragedy. Yesterday was a rough day. In some ways it was positive. He was much more agitated and actually trying to pull his breathing tube out, which tells me he in still in there. So painful to watch him suffering and in pain. He is likely going to survive this. But at what cost? He will lose his left eye and will need a prosthesis. It is literally hanging out of the eye socket. Luckily they have it covered so I haven't had to witness that nightmare. The Ophthalmologist yesterday said he will likely be blind in the right eye as well. So trying to wrap my brain around having a blind child. He is not going to embrace blindness well at all. He is actually going to be extremely angry he failed his attempt. So it is painful to think about his quality of life after this impulsive and horrific decision he made in the early hours of November 2nd. He is not breathing on his own yet and the swelling in his brain is still the major concern. So we are unsure of the damage done and what disabilities he will face if he survives this. He has multiple orbit and facial fractures so those will need to be repaired at some point. He is likely going to have a long surgical road ahead. They had to support his blood pressure yesterday, which did help his kidneys so that was a blessing. His heart rate plunged down to 35 at one point, which cause a major stir in the staff. It is running in the 50's now, which is better. But down from the 90's on Sunday. So much is still unknown a this point.

I am not okay! I am trying to find the meaning of this suffering and I am struggling to do so. This kid has struggled so much in his life. Why this? Why not just take him home? He will never snowboard again. He will never drive again. Will he ever marry? He will never see his child, if he ever has any? He may never live independently. What is the purpose of all of that? My faith usually carries me but this is too much! I am struggling finding meaning in any of this that makes any sense.

Hoping today is a better day. We should know more later this week or early next week. Prayers for restored vision would be great. He can have some type of life if that right eye maintains its vision. At this point, I am unsure what else to pray for. Thank you for the overflowing support during this time. I appreciate it all more than you know 🙏🥰

11/02/2025

As most of you know, I am a very transparent person. This isn't something I want to post but I think it will help those that are patients understand if I am not as responsive as usual. My son attempted su***de early this morning. He is alive but it is not good. He has swelling in the brain and multiple facial fractures and will lose his left eye. I am getting ready to board a plane in 5 minutes to Denver. It will be touch and go for the next few days and the hospital staff recommended that we all come sooner rather than later. It will be an extremely tough time. I am taking all of next week off. My nurses will still be there as usual. Prayers are always welcomed🙏

11/02/2025

Gotta love daylight savings😭 Instead of being up at 3, now we are up at 2!!! Going to be a fun winter🙃

This is an interesting concept. How many physicians in our area have had major health challenges or a sudden death? I know of at least two and I am not even in that community. They created a situation where it is almost impossible to confirm causation. Will this create an even bigger push for healthcare AI?

What is sad is that doctors have to be seeing the devastation of these shots. Why is there not more outrage? Is a job really worth keeping your mouth shut with major mortality and morbidity? The silence coming from the healthcare industry is heartbreaking. I had a patient tell me their neurologist stated that ALS used to be a rare diagnosis in their practice. But now they are seeing 10 cases a year. What has changed? How am I able to make a connect as a nurse practitioner but a neurologist cannot see a correlation? Do they see the correlation but choose to keep their mouth shut for their quarter of a million to half million dollar salary? How much would it take for you to sell your soul to the enemy? Will it be worth it on judgement day?

It is just sickening to be awake to the lies and see no accountability. To see the devastation first hand in my own patients and know there is no recourse for these people. To see the benefits of IVM and other vaccine injury protocols that are not mainstream. To know these products are still on the market. And to not know what it looks like 5-10 years down the road for people who rolled up their sleeves for this experimental pharmaceutical product.

Do no harm is a staple of graduating physicians across the country. At this point, ordering and giving a Covid product should be a criminal offense. There is so much data out there showing the harm. If the government and the 3-letter health agencies won't remove them from the market, healthcare providers should refuse to order and administer them. Unfortunately, healthcare providers are actually more protected legally by giving a product that could kill and injury a person than the provider that refuses. We live in a sick and twisted world!

11/01/2025

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10/31/2025

Nursing/Medical school training video😝 Sorry about the language.

It is funny, because it's true. Big Pharma creates the education. Medical/nursing schools comply (likely due to funding). They create a society of healthcare professionals that are so brainwashed they believe natural is a hoax and pharmaceuticals are the science. It is sad I was part of that system for so many years.

I have a patient with ALS. We have been doing UBI, TruDose, and infusions (high dose vitamin C, NAD+ and glutathione). The doctors (even at Mayo) are scratching their heads on why this person is doing so well. The only option they were given by traditional medicine was a pharmaceutical drug that at best extended their life 1-2 months. It did nothing to help with symptoms or quality of life. But did come with a long list of side effects. But if I went to 10 different doctors to let them know my treatment plan for this person, the majority would think I was a quack and would still support the pharmaceutical drug. "There is no science". "Show me the placebo controlled studies". Blah, blah, blah! They should do a study comparing the two treatment options, but that will never happen. A drug can never look bad compared to natural treatment options.

My mom had her second TruDose yesterday. I was seeing another patient so didn't get to see the parasites in the canister. But Robyn said they were much better this time around. So glad the albendazole is helping. We still have a ways to go if they are still showing up but her body has to be less stressed getting rid of some of those parasites.

My TruDose update: my hair is not falling out as much; my eye lashes are growing; I am dreaming every single night (vivid dreams); and my biofeedback energy numbers have improved significantly. Something is definitely happening at a cellular level. It has stirred up some old symptoms from decades ago. That has been intriguing but I am embracing all the healing that is happening in my body! Treatment #2 is scheduled for mid November. I will update soon!

For my cancer patients, I am obviously moving forward with EBOO (hopefully that is in His will). I am also looking into IV curcumin. I finally found a source for that but it is in another country so could be months before I am able to administer. I also found a pharmacy for IV mistletoe. I am still trying to source IV artemisinin. More to come on the cancer front☺️

10/30/2025

How many of you have heard of EBOO? EBOO stands for Extracorporeal Blood Oxygenation and Ozonation. I've had some patients ask if UBI was EBOO. It is not. But EBOO does have ultraviolet lights, oxygen and ozone. I have been hesitant to use ozone in the blood due to the risk of increased oxidative stress. But EBOO uses a lower concentration of ozone since it goes through a dialysis filter. Unlike UBI that only removes and treats 5% of the patient's blood, EBOO is treating 2 liters of blood during one treatment. The procedure consists of two IVs so a closed loop system is created. The blood is removed, filtered, ozonated and then returned to the body. The process takes about 1 hour.

In true fashion, this was brought to my attention and I am feeling propelled to move forward. There is a clinic in Bozeman that is doing EBOO. There might be one in Kalispell but I am having a hard time determining if they actually have one or no. But regardless, there is no one in Helena offering EBOO to my knowledge. Most clinics are charging $900-$2500 per treatment. If the costs remain the same, I think I could offer it for $650 (non-DPC members) and $500 for my members. Nothing is set in stone but will see if this process is as seamless as the other services I have brought into my clinic. If it is coming from Him, it will happen. If not, I pray for discernment.

Unlike UBI that is safe for everyone, EBOO does have contraindications including severe anemia, G6PD deficiency (would require blood work), pregnancy/breastfeeding, active bleeding disorders, severe cardiovascular instability, uncontrolled hyperthyroidism, or recent heart attacks.

EBOO is becoming a very popular service after Dr. Gary Brecka did a session at his local clinic and bragged about the effects. He also uses a HOCATT machine and other biohacks. Many patients are seeking after safe/alternative treatments to get/remain healthy in this very toxic world. EBOO is becoming a high demand service in many areas.

I am in the beginning stages of looking into this service. I am just curious how many have heard about it or any experiences people might have. I have a patient that was going to travel to CA to have it done during a 3-day retreat for $11,000. That is just insane to me if I can bring it in for under a $1000/treatment. Obviously the 3-day retreat offered IV therapy and other treatments. But I can do the same and likely would still be around $1000-$1500 total vs $11,000!!!! Montana is not California (well we hope not anyways), but it is highway robbery what some of these clinics are charging for services. I had a new patient tell me they had scheduled with a functional medicine clinic in Bozeman. They required a $1000 deposit before they could be seen for the initial consult. Thankfully they ran away fast. But how many are so desperate they get sucked into a money hungry clinic?

More to come! If it is meant to be, it will be. If not, I will just keep propelling forward🙏

10/29/2025

Serious question: what would happen to a parent who gave their child any of these ingredients outside of a vaccine? Attempted murder? But in a pharmaceutical product, without any long term/placebo controlled studies, it is called science. In some states children can be taken away from parents if they choose not to inject these poisons into their babies/children.

What world are we living in? And don't get me started on the hatred there is for those of us that actually ask questions and raise concerns. There are many parents who read every food label before feeding their children but willingly accept recommendations from a pediatrician who says vaccines are safe and effect. I can almost guarantee that pediatrician has never read the vaccine inserts. I never did. Who the heck has time to read vaccine inserts? Why wouldn't the insert be readily available for parents to read prior to agreeing to a vaccination? It should be out in the waiting rooms. Sent in an email prior to the vaccination appointment. But it is not! Why?

Would most parents agree to vaccinate their newborn if they knew the ingredients? Why is informed consent absent for vaccines?

When we look at the chronic disease statistics in children, we have our answer to all of the above questions. The goal is not health and wellness. The goal is chronic disease and creating patients for life. But who am I and what do I know? 😝