03/01/2026
March is going to be a difficult month for me. Sean's birthday is 3/14 and my mom's birthday is 3/26. Sean would have been 23 this year and my mom 77. Every day is hard but March is going to be especially difficult moving forward, as is November/December. I don't want to focus on the sadness and hurt but I am not sure how avoid those feelings. And maybe the goal is not to avoid them but to embrace that grief this horrific means I loved deeply.
The world is crazy right now. I don't want war. I hate that our divided country will celebrate evil when their side is in charge making the decisions. Evil is evil. We must at some point recognize that our leaders are just evil puppets and countries who we help to liberate never end up better in the long run. We can justify death and destruction in another country with an evil ruler that is harming their people. Yet the evil rulers in our country get ignored and are given free passes. This may be a very unpopular opinion but I will continue to call out evil when I see it. I can't be the light, if I support evil because my side spun the narrative.
As I have said before, this is not a US vs another country or a right vs left battle. This is absolutely a good vs evil. I believe the negative energy we release into the world is exactly what they want. They want us fearful. They want us hurting. They want us fighting each other. They want us so focused on world events that we forget how to live in the moment. We are too distressed to enjoy the beauty surrounding us. We are too focused on the war and liberation that we can't get off our phones to go for a walk or play with the kids. We celebrate the evil when we should be fighting against it. I have heard several people talk about our phones as being the Mark of the Beast. Very few people in the world today can live without the phone being in their hand. We make purchases from our phones. We bank on our phones. We can track world events from our phones. While I am not convinced of this theory, I do believe this technology has not been in our best interest. And I do believe with all of my being that complete control is coming. And our phones will be a critical component of that plan. We will be too busy fighting each other and defending "our side" that we will not even see the rollout coming. One day we will wake up and our money will be completely controlled. My money will be shut off since I post things like this. Your money is shut off because you have 10 vaccines you need to get caught up with. Their money is shut off because they sought medical treatment at my clinic vs the government approved healthcare clinic. We are inching closer, yet we are so consumed we seem to ignore the inevitable.
I know He is bigger than all of the problems in this world. I know He has a plan that I cannot see. I know He has opened my eyes to be the light and to heed warnings of what is to come. I do not fear what is coming. Maybe that is just grief and feeling numb. But I have total peace. If he took me home tomorrow, I would celebrate. But whatever is coming, I know He has put many of us in place to help His people get through it. Things will get worse. Much worse. Do Not put faith in man. Put your faith in Him. No matter what is coming our way, He will guide us. He will be there no matter how bad things yet. And in the end, we will be with Him. Our souls will be free and back home, in eternal peace🙏