06/03/2023
This weekend was full circle on the hardest chapter of my life…a year ago I was layed up in a hospital bed, post hysterectomy, with a huge scar across my tummy, drowning in depression after having my heart smashed into a million little pieces 2 weeks prior…I endured so much heavy s**t all at the same time, & I KNOW if I didn’t have such an amazing support system of women (& my awesome dad) in my life, there’s no way in Hell I would have been able to make it through what I did. ALL the women in my life showed up for me. Days before the surgery, my grandma started forcing me to drink Ensures bc I hadn’t eaten for 10 days- she told me I couldn’t die on the operating table- solid move granny! My girlfriends saved me after the surgery. They took rotations staying & caring for me & my children. They slept in bed with me, gave me my medicine, held my hair when I threw up, set up meal trains, cleaned my house. They even threw a bday party for my 6 year old! They put on a clinic and showed me what it means to truly take care of someone.
It was women- ALL of you! My mom & sis, family, coworkers, extended girlfriends, clients, my fellow designers, and all you sweet strangers here on the gram- you all showed up and carried me through the darkest days I’ve ever known… you all helped pull me out of the shadows and into the light… through your words of encouragement, your shoulders to cry on, your check ins on me, your patience with me, your own personal stories of hope, and all the continued cheerleading! I’ll never really be being able to articulate how grateful I am, but THANK YOU!
Amidst so much hardness, It was one of the most beautiful experiences in my life. I could cry now reliving what that felt like… what it felt like to be shown so much love, more than I had ever known…. This weekend I lived in appreciation for it all. I celebrated that my body is healed and capable and strong… in each physical activity I did, I relished in how far I’ve come! The hard parts are always there to remind us how to enjoy the good 🤍