02/21/2026
A little post about overcoming fear.
Today I participated in my very first competition hosted at my gym
When coach .s.a.p_fitness suggested I join two weeks ago I legit replied with :āyou think thatās a good idea?ā
Becauseā¦
The last few months Iāve been battling an unstable lower back. I kept throwing it out of place not even by doing anything crazy. The determined person in me wanted to keep pushing. But the season I am in right now is reconfiguration. So I took a step back. With guidance from coach and my friend/chiro I went back to basics- core stability work, balance, bands(boring).
So again two weeks ago I really didnāt think I was suited to be competing.
But hereās the thing about having community- coach never second guessed my ability. Just casually was like āyea of course you can do itā so I entered.
Two weeks of prep, scared to death of hurting myself.
And today feeling like I had no idea what I was doing, not only did I not hurt myself, I reached a new PR of 242lbs. Thatās 1.5x my bodyweight and I know I can lift heavier than that.
I placed 3rd and I honestly didnāt even expect that.
I post this unedited video so you can see that I failed at my first attempt. The sudden fear consuming me that I couldnāt do it. But I took a breath and I remembered coaches belief and everyone there gave a shout that I could do it. The mind is strongerā¦
So when you feel like you canāt do something, find the people who tell you-āyou canā.
And lift heavy s**t šŖš½