01/04/2025
My mind races as I reactive this page...
Its been a year.
I took a step away from being active within the online fitness space this time last year. I took a deep dive into who I am as an individual, who I am as a fitness professional, and what God put me in this space to do, create, and inspire.
What I learned was more about who I am not within this space and who I was not put in this space for. Trusting that what I was feeling in my head & heart were true downloads from God was hard.
Did God actually show me who to say 'no' to and what dynamics of the industry to not conform to? That was a huge YES.
I wanted to help everyone in my greener days as a trainer. I thought if I could do it, anyone could! And while that may be so, that doesn't mean it was my job to be everyone's catalyst. I was not designed to help everyone.
Hiring business coaches and diving into different business techniques always seemed to be centered around the same foundation: use people's pain points to build their trust & use their vulnerability to assist in locking them in.
No. Absolutely not. That's something that, to me, has been dead and gone for a long time. And this was where the change had to happen.
I used my drinking and bad habits as leverage to connect with other people's pain. I used my years of being over weight & unhealthy to be relatable to people who were currently in that season of life or recently out of it. And while that may have been helpful for someone else to not feel alone or judged, it also kept a past trauma and pain point very much alive FOR ME and for the client.
I stepped back & evaluated my journey as a trainer since 2011. I've walked a wild path that not many can hold a candle to. I've been places and worked with demographics that many of my fellow personal trainers may never experince. And through that, I believe God granted me the ability to niche down in a new way, one without pain points.
I am not a weightloss coach. I am not a recovery mentor. I am not going to chase an adult down for their bare minimum of their own commitment to their goals that I help them map out.
I am a strength & resilience trainer. I am a trainer that has helped hundreds of people world wide, in person & online, dig deep and change more than what the scale says. And I know I was meant to do that - my gifts within this space are meant to be shared with those who have visions AHEAD, not those who are anchored in past issues and struggles.
I stepped back so God could teach me how to say NO to what the industry wants me to say yes to & how to say YES to those who I once only dreamed of working with.
For those who have been close through this year of quiet expansion, I appreciate you. For those who have leaned in when I have backed away, you're part of my tribe and irreplaceable. For everyone I have ever worked with, your value and experience was an irreplaceable piece of my story.
We have to evolve or we stay in the same places. This place/space is no different. Growth is uncomfortable and challenging... and I am in the business of challenging growth & potential.
