The Ethereal Opal Shamanic Healing

10/19/2022

We will all go through times of shadow, it is part of seeking to know who we are, and how to more deeply love ourselves. The things that have hurt us, the things that our soul is made of.

Sometimes the shadows can feel so heavy that we feel like all hope is lost. And I am no stranger to this. I am with all of you in this search to know who we are and why it matters if we exist.

Sometimes it is only in small, brief moments that we catch a glimpse of that purpose and light we are meant to bring to this world.

So if you, like me, seem lost in your shadows, I pray that this poem will bring a tiny glimmer to your shadows and pain.

We are all made of the matter that this world was created from. We all have a purpose, a measure to fill. It is unique, like no one else’s. So do not compare your light to theirs.

As we wander through this life, we find little bits of the evidence of who we were created to be.

May your hope yet find a place in your heart, and may it lead you on to the next small glimmer of your light!

Love to all who suffer in shadow.

I am here with you.

08/08/2022

Practice discernment between these two types of people. Practice knowing and FEELING the difference! Spend enough time alone that you are able to know one from the other. It is in those moments of peace and calm that you will feel who is worthy of your time and energy. And love yourself enough to only accept those people into your life who bring you peace. Those who will help you heal and become the best version of you there could possibly be. That is self love, and that is the path to greater peace and love from within. May you find those people who heal the cracks in your soul and encourage to become truly yourself in your most beautiful form.
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07/31/2022

01/21/2022

I know it may seem like I’m just ghosting people, being anti-social, lazy, or selfish…but I am doing my best.

Our best varies from moment to moment. My best today is not the same as my best yesterday.

Yesterday I slept. Not because I just didn’t feel like doing the things I needed to do….but because after running a couple of errands, I was so exhausted that all I could think of was sleep and how desperately I needed to get in my bed.

Talking to clients and friends yesterday I couldn’t pronounce words and kept slurring words together. No I wasn’t drunk! Lol. My brain was just exhausted!! Stress and anxiety from the las few weeks was causing some dysfunction, and had finally gone from just physical pain and exhaustion, to mental exhaustion and fatigue. I was embarrassed at how I sounded and must have appeared to my client.

I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt and embarrassment that just won’t leave. The guilt and shame of letting everyone down and not being who I need to be for everyone else. So it is crushing to me to have to step back from life for a moment. To feel like I’m in the bench and not in the game. It feels terrible to not be the one doing, and to now be the one needing.

I know this is necessary, and it’s a lesson I need to learn, but it feels so heavy these days.

So I’m sorry if I’ve suddenly disappeared for any of you, or have let you down in some way. I truly am. I’m sorry I have to be selfish for a moment, I don’t like it either. But if I do this now, I’ll be better able to help you later. I promis I will get better. I promise to come back stronger and more able to help others. I promise I won’t stay this way forever. I’m sorry, I just need you to be patient with me. I promise this is not who I truly am. I promise I’ll prove that to you. I just need a moment.

I love you all!

01/20/2022

Closing up shop…for now…

I’m very sad to say that because of health reasons and various other factors, I will be closing up shop at The Ethereal Opal inside Xanadu.

Hopefully this is temporary and I’ll be back to it soon, but the universe is redirecting me at this time.

I will still be offering many of my services via distance appointments, or in-person as either house calls or home office. Please reach out to me if you would like an appointment, I would still love to help people as much as I am able.

I am just taking a step back to re-evaluate and help my body and mind heal.

I love you all!

Sending all the good vibes!💕💕💕

01/17/2022

I definitely feel this at the moment!!!

01/12/2022

This is not simply in regards to romantic relationships only. This is ANYONE in your life!

01/12/2022

If I could explain what I truly meant by this, it would take hours. I have expended so much energy for people who do not comprehend how to give back. I have given the best parts of me. Sacrificed myself almost completely.

But as I’ve chosen my career and the path I’ve decided to follow, I have learned that not everyone wants your success, and not everyone has your highest good in their intentions.

Although it may be hard to tell the difference between these people and those who will reciprocate your energy, with time you begin to become aware of it faster and faster. And you will see quickly when you are sacrificing yourself in the name of nobility or love, when really you’re allowing others to pay you nothing in return for all that you have.

So set your standards, and know your true value. And don’t waste your time on those who don’t see that you are a priceless gift they will never have a chance to have in their lives.

01/12/2022

This statement. This does not simply apply to romantic relationships, as most people would think. This applies to every relationship. With every person in our lives, including ourselves!

Knowing and recognizing when you are trying to “earn” someone’s love demonstrates a new level of self-awareness and expectations of yourself and others.

I know that I have spent a majority of my life trying to prove my worth to others, and the truth is…you can’t. It’s impossible to MAKE anyone love you! So begging for it only makes you a slave to the desire to have their love and acceptance.

In the story of Aladdin, the genie states that one of the wishes he cannot grant is to make someone fall in love with you. At first you may think, “well why not? What’s so wrong with that?”

A couple of things actually! 1. You are taking away their choice and agency. Therefore, they did not choose to love you, you forced them. Personally, forcing anyone to love me would feel hollow and empty. And that will eventually cause sorrow and heartbreak. And 2. the love is not real, it’s a façade. And eventually every façade must fall.

So don’t try to beg or force people to love you. Know your worth, and demand full price. If they can’t see the value that you bring to the table, then don’t lower the table so they can sit with you, raise the bar and invite them to find a stool.😉😂

01/06/2022

When anxiety is high and I have a hard time seeing the good…things that ope the creative mind can allow you to focus your chaos into a beautiful mess.

Is this a masterpiece? No. But was it healing to paint for a bit? Absolutely. I may never be an amazing artist, but that is not the point. The point is to create.

01/03/2022

As the New Year was approaching, my mentor asked me to spend time thinking about what I wanted to let go of in 2021, and what I wanted to embrace and invite in for 2022. The thing that came up that I needed to let go of? Hurt…and bitterness. I had used these two words to create protective walls around myself, but what had once protected me was now stifling and killing me. The hurt that comes from giving your heart and having it destroyed by men. The hurt of a little girl who was mistreated and used, the hurt of a woman who gave as much as she could and tried to be humble and kind but just ended up wounded and left for dead. So much hurt that I have carried in my body since I was 3. But I am letting it go. I know that I will need someone who is patient with my healing, but knows that I AM healing! That I strive to be aware of how my emotions affect not only my world, but the worlds of those I love.

I have the power within me to let go of pain and hurt and bitterness. I have within me the power to protect my inner little girl, and I have the power to see for myself who is worthy of this gift.