Empty Out by Emily Kelly

03/11/2022

Change. It is our constant in this lifetime, a contract we signed when we took our first breath.

It will find its way through ease or force.

To have someone who sees you through life’s changes and accepts each refined version that emerges is a gift from a Source I am forever grateful to.

I wrote this sitting under my most loved Mother Tree in the middle of the woods. Feeling sad, but accepting as her leaves fell and the air became cold enough to turn the tip of my nose pink. I wrote it to myself. To my husband. To my dearest friends. To You.

To see and accept the endless versions of someone is a love language to me.

So I give that love to myself💛

24/10/2022

Ever just feel overwhelmingly grateful for your life?

Sometimes I look at the girls and Clay on a slow Saturday morning and my eyes well up with an overflow of love.

And sometimes I feel guilt immediately following because I know this season isn’t the one everyone is currently in, but I want it to be.

Or the love is followed by fear that it won’t last or something bad will happen.

Oh the joy of intrusive thoughts🤪

Lately it’s been my #1 goal to allow myself to feel good and hold it for long periods of time. Wrap my arms around the moments, bottle it up to remember + savor, and allow it to engulf me in it’s entirety. Not cutting it short.

More love/abundance in our own lives doesn’t mean less love for others. I’m finding the exact opposite to be true💛

29/09/2022

She stood.

Proud. Tall. Tired. Strong.

Some days brave, other days afraid.

But she stood.

Over and over again💛

22/09/2022

Page 4.

Earlier in the year a friend told me about this mysterious woman she knew, Irene. She was in her late 70’s, a Licensed therapist, and a Shaman. Fascinating doesn’t even begin to describe her. The stories about Irene completely captivated me and I asked for her contact info. The way she held sessions was not your typical talk therapy model. Each appointment I’d get cozy, close my eyes, and we’d begin to guide my higher self into my body. The first session we landed a few places before we entered my heart. She made a lot of noises as we were exploring and I could always tell she saw something before I ever did. This was the case with my heart. She let out an “ahhh yes. Let’s explore here.” I entered a dark cave, so dark I could barely see. Until suddenly I started to notice art work displayed all over the cave’s walls. It was mine. Stories, poems, and drawings I had created as a child/teen. I could see myself walking through the cave admiring what I had made. Irene asked if I wanted to stay in my heart or move on? I hesitated, even though I knew I didn’t want to leave. So I bravely said “stay”. “Good,” she said. “Let’s stay.” I started to see myself placing a candle beneath each piece of art, lighting the wick, and watching the glow of the flame illuminate each piece. Once every piece was on display, I saw myself find a seat in the blue blow up chair I had in my bedroom as a kid. I sat there and admired what I had made, no one needed to tell me it was good or beautiful. It was enough just for me. We stayed in that cave until the end of the session and returned often. I didn’t know it then, but decorating the walls of my heart would soon take on a life of its own💛

15/09/2022

To the brave women who show up despite being scared.

To all of us💛

13/09/2022

Page 3.

“How do I stop outsourcing the remedies to my insecurities?” I started to ask myself on a walk one day.

My attention shifted to the smell of campfire drifting through the woods. I breathed it in and felt an enveloping sense of joy all around me.

I began to create a list. I took note of the moments I felt alive, I saw something beautiful, or experienced something that pulled me fully into the present. Like the smell in the woods that day. I titled the list “Me”...because those moments are me. They’re the truest part of my soul, the insecurities experienced are not. I began collecting and welcoming these glimpses of beauty into the walls of my heart. Not knowing where I was headed, but certain that this was the right direction💛

That “Me” list is in the photos:)

01/09/2022

I stopped creating for the internet for four months. Instead, everything I wrote or made was for me. No concern for the lens anyone else would view it through, it returned back to its original art form rather than work designed to interest someone else.

Creativity in its purest form is vital to the growth of our planet and society. I’m certain of that. Our original ideas are waiting to be heard and sung. New ideas, different concepts- they shake things up for a bit…but that’s where the good stuff comes from💛

I will be sharing what I’ve experienced in the last few months in story form this month. I’ve learned through living and nothing can touch that💛

Missed ya🥰

I

29/04/2022

Some of us easily translate ourselves into social media content.

And some of us don’t.

No number or metric could ever represent your complexities, loveliness or worth.

Because the intricacies that only those you let in get to see…those are what make you so interesting. They’re what make someone fall in love with your heart, mind and soul.

So if you’ve ever placed a lot of weight into a number on here (or anywhere)…remember it’s a glimpse of your entirety. And maybe you’re entirety is too intricately magnificent to translate through a screen💛

21/04/2022

How to stop shrinking yourself:

*it’s something I’m actively working on as I catch myself doing so more often than I’d like to admit. I’ve been keeping a running list of ways so I thought I’d share:)

Give yourself permission to celebrate your wins. You can be humble and proud simultaneously.

Stop turning the music down and suddenly not singing when you pull up to a red light and there’s a car next to you- unless you see a sleeping baby lol:)

Wear what makes you feel like you. If that means a dress on a day you have nothing “dress worthy” going on- so be it.

Ask yourself: why am I subduing myself? Downplaying my happiness or accomplishments? Is it to make others more comfy? Fear of abandonment? Fear of judgment? All valid- but it helps to know what’s at the bottom of it all.

Learn what is energetically yours vs what is others.

Follow through with responsibilities. It builds self trust, which breeds self confidence. Without the two it’s very hard to feel safe being seen in our entirety.

Surround yourself w others who love your full expression.

Be big. There’s so much inside that the world is waiting to see💛

Anything to add?

07/04/2022

You know that old cliche: “Feel the fear and do it anyway”?

I’ve started to notice there’s a missing link.

I was in conversation with someone I consider a mentor- talking through an ongoing experience I was naming as fear. She paused and replied with this:

“Sometimes fear is fear. And sometimes fear is wisdom.”

We have to develop the discernment to decipher which is which. Sometimes fear is something we need to work through. Sometimes it’s simply asking us to acknowledge it’s protective role in trying to keep us safe and to let it know we’re safe now + we’re ready to move forward into new territory.

But sometimes fear is wisdom…where a part of us knows that something is not
aligned. Where our whole heart or our soul is trying to communicate that this is not it. This is not the way. This is not the time. Something isn’t syncing.

And maybe it’s a bit of both.

So maybe you feel the fear and do it anyway….

Or maybe your fear is wisdom. Your very own guiding light. Only you know that💛

11/02/2022

Want to practice with me this month? I’ll be teaching an empty out + reiki and meditation experience at aura next week! Join me. No prior experience necessary- just a willing and open heart💛

Celebrate the love this month with us at Aura 💛
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✨ Saturday, 2.12, 2-8pm ✨ Meet Me on Main Valentine's Day shopping & entertainment extravaganza! Stop by to Enter to win a $100 gift card, create your ritual, 30% off sweaters, & More!
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✨ Tuesday, 2.15, 6-9pm ✨ Galentine's Day Celebration with at Fishers | All the things grl pwr + high vibes. Come solo or with your BFF (making new friends is highly encouraged). Think pink bubbly drinks + shopping + spa stations galore.
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✨ Thursday, 2.17, 6:30pm ✨ .out by , an energetic movement meditation practice in the Aura Studio (only a few spaces left, reserve yours at the link in our bio)
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✨ Sunday, 2.20, 4pm ✨ our signature healing sound bath with in Aura Studio (only a few spaces left, reserve yours at the link in our bio)
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12/01/2022

Reflections from my work with Hope for Hearts Horses today💛

It’s almost been a year of working with this group of six horses, but today I had a new addition to love on: Noel. The sweetest donkey you’ve ever met. Her body was a wide open vessel waiting to soak in every drop of love I could offer. There are some animals that will never give you a clear stopping point during a session- she is one of them. Others, typically the ones who are higher up in the pack order or view themselves as such, will give a clear “I’m done w this.” I always listen and conclude our work together.

Jake is the clear pack leader of this bunch. You don’t question as to why when you’re in his energy. Today he specifically requested his bum to be focused on as I started to offer reiki. In animals this often represents survival, pack order, instinct/security. So I waited to see if he would tell me more. He began to communicate that his importance as a leader is reinstated each time someone new enters the pack (Noel). He showed me endless rays of sunshine touching down all around him and that he believes he is creating a pocket of heaven here on the farm. He explained that we all have a hand in making heaven on earth and it’s just whether or not we can recognize the importance in each of our roles. Bc one is not more important than the other. "How many versions of heaven can you create? Look around. They’re everywhere.”

Sweet Ginger had me reflecting on my own today. You can see in the photos she has one eye. She captivates me. She’s beautiful, strong, adaptable, outspoken when needed, soft when called for, she’s mesmerizing. Her physical appearance is noticeably different- yet it draws me towards her even more. The way we view our human body is is so harsh. So unforgiving. So expecting of uniformity. But I can look at her and see endless beauty in a physical difference that I know is not without challenge. I wondered how we could encourage those same eyes upon our own unique physical differences, our own bodies that have been through challenges.

Thank you Jake, Ginger & all animals who lovingly reflect back to us what we need to see most💛