09/21/2023
So yesterday was a whole lot different than I was expecting… I had called the eye doctor about the big red floater in my eye, and they gave me an appointment at 8:30. Gabe was able to take me to the office, and I got checked in. I was a bit nervous, but not too bad. And thankfully the office staff is amazing! Chris’s cousin Meghan was working, and she brought me into an exam room. She asked some questions, and then gave me the glasses where it covers one eye. She covered my left eye, and I looked out at the light box on the wall, trying to read any of the letters on there, and the entire box was lighting up red. I couldn’t see anything except the red. She turns it to the biggest letter, so it takes up the whole box, and still all I saw was red. So we did the other eye, and thankfully it was ok. She took me to the room where you wait for the dialation drops to work. At this point I was panicking just a bit… well maybe more than a bit… so I texted Chris, and my sister in love, and two very dear friends asking them to pray with me. I get called in to see the doctor, and she was very matter of factly looking in my eye. Usually she will make small talk or jokes with me, so this raised my anxiety even more. She confirmed what we feared, I had an active bleed in the very center of my eye, and that’s why it was blocking my vision. The pocket of blood was still there on the outside of my eye, but thankfully had not burst yet. She explained everything and answered all the questions I had. Then it was decided they would put an injection in my eye to try to stop the active bleed, and hopefully allow it to start absorbing. But she did warn me that unfortunately my vision in that eye will never go back to normal, but it should get better. They took me into a procedure room, and started getting me ready… numbing eye drops, numbing eye gel, iodine, then a gadget that holds your eye open. As much as I hate it, and it’s uncomfortable, I’m super thankful for that doohickey. Because all I wanted to do was close my eyes super tight to protect them from the needles… it was over in about 5 minutes. I got bandaged up, and Gabe drove me home. It was pretty sore, but mainly it felt like the world’s largest eyelash stuck in my eye, and there wasn’t a single thing I could do.
I’m so thankful that God gave doctors and researchers the knowledge to help people like this.
Funny fact… I had to sign a form saying the medication wasn’t created for this purpose, but that I still wanted to use it. What was the intended use of the medicine you ask?? Colon cancer… so the researchers had their heads up their butts? 🤦🏻♀️😱🤷🏻♀️
Living life one day at a time, and praising Him in the storm. ❤️
