08/05/2025
This past week marked 9 years of living without a colon, and receiving my ostomy bag. I remember praying about six months after my surgery. I asked God, “Never let me forget what you did for me.“ I never wanted to lose that feeling of awe and gratitude to my Savior. I never wanted to lose sight of what mattered the most. I never wanted to become numb, or so far removed from the situation that I forgot the feeling of Jesus saving my life.
Sometimes l feel the only thing I can do is fall to my knees, and thank God for being sovereign and holy and compassionate, even when I didn’t deserve it. I thank Him for the grace He gives that I don’t deserve. I thank Him for helping me look at my scars, my ostomy, my flaws, something I thought would be terrible, and allowing me to see the redeeming grace of Jesus all over my life. I thank Him for never leaving me, even when I may have strayed from Him. I thank Him for healing me, not just in a physical sense but the healing He brought to my soul. I thank Him for His limitless love, power, mercy, and grace that He freely gives to each of us. I thank Him for being a big God who never forgets about little ole me…
My words seem to always fall short. Nothing I can come up with seems fitting. So, my prayer is this, whatever you may be facing, whatever flaw you think you have, battle you think you won’t survive, or attack from the enemy you may have had to endure, I pray you run to Jesus. Choose right now to lean into Him, and trust that He hasn’t left you and never will. I pray if you don’t know Him, you accept His free love and grace. I pray that He is glorified in my life, above all else, as long as I live. Here’s to 9 years!!!
