12/15/2023
Relational Health
I was having a chat with a friend back in Charleston a couple days ago and we got to talking about mending relationships and forgiveness. I shared with her how this last time I read the Torah I finally understood why all the sacrificing. The blood for obvious reasons but the offerings are about atonement. Saying I’m sorry and asking for forgiveness is one thing. Repenting and atoning for, making amends for what you have done wrong is quite another. The later is what builds the bridge for a relationship to mend and heal. It also facilitates forgiveness. We talk about forgiveness like we are just supposed to be ok with being done wrong and let people back in our lives without effort on their part. Matthew chapter 5 says blessed are those that hunger and thirst for righteousness. Blessed are the peacemakers which is not to be confused with a peacekeeper. One makes things right while the other enables bad behavior. That doesn’t sound like being ok with being wronged. Lastly, if God is a just God, and he is, then justice is to be had and it’s ok to expect a measure of that prior to letting someone back near enough to you to cause damage. Setting healthy boundaries and allowing them to prove they are in fact repentant and willing to atone is all a reasonable part of the forgiveness journey. I realize there are some cases this process will never happen and that is ok. We do, at times, have the opportunity to forgive people that will never admit wrong doing. However, to be in relationship with someone requires the additional steps for the relationship to truly be healthy. Forgiving someone that doesn’t repent and doesn’t atone but still gets full access to you can easily become self abuse and have ALL kinds of mental and physical health consequences so be careful and aware of where they is happening in your life.
I could have written this letter myself. I have had to speak most of these words to my children. I have made the choice to do the work to repent and atone. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Is it humbling? 100%! Is it worth it? 1,000%!!! This is part of what generational trauma breaking looks like. It is definitely what legacy building looks like. I want better for them far more than I want comfort for me so I remain patient when they are disrespectful because I never taught them how to respect me. I remain available to serve them because nobody was around to serve me in the stages of life they are in. Through my patience, grace, mercy and service (thank you Holy Spirit) our lives are changing for the best and I couldn’t be more proud 💖