01/09/2026
If I were being brutally honest with myself
Truly open and vulnerable
As I reflect on 2025 and where I failed, where I could have done better
Where I have allowed myself to be distracted
Taking me away from what matters, from being present from fully putting my heart into what I am building
It is the amount of time I spent staring at a screen
I allowed my nervous system to become dysregulated, the exact opposite of what I help people with at my events
During the fall, feeling a bit burnt out, I had made a decision to take January off of events but didn’t anticipate the emotional and mental challenges I would face after my final event of the year was completed
My mind went a little haywire when I wasn’t waking up and working
Like, what do I do with my time when I’m not checking eventbrite every 5 minutes
My nervous system was figuring out how to just ‘be’ again and I needed to trust my intuition when my mind was pushing me to fill my time and stay busy (sound familiar?)
Once things started to settle, I noticed small creative urges happening and not creating a new event but just creating to create
I made a candle, I ordered weighted chunky yarn to make a blanket, spending more time in the kitchen, in the woods and it feels really good
This is when my genius comes through, in the quiet moments without force
In the space (my word for 2026)
So as I notice my mind going into overdrive, causing overwhelm, I take a breath and remember that I get to choose how I build my life and my business
And it will be woven with moments of softness and joy, cups of tea warming my hands, feeling the sun on my face because this is the feeling
The feeling that I want everyone to feel when they come into my space
But it starts with me
