11/06/2025
A Vow for 2026 and beyond…quiet but world-altering.
“ I will not abandon myself—no matter how unlovely, unspiritual, or undone I feel.”
I remain through the tremors, the fear, through the dread, through the long nights when the body feels like a stranger and I can’t speak their language.
BUT…I can lay a hand on my belly and heart and say “I am here…I got you…I’m not going anywhere…I’m right here in this mess with you. Yup, even this.”
To offer myself Presence instead of analysis…to be in Right Relationship with suffering and its teachers…illness, old age, and Death.
These are this life’s doorways into Mastery…not from a lofty penthouse but from the Forest Floor…like the kind where you are covered in dirt, pine needles, sharp pokey things, and those rocks that find your spine when camping in a sleeping bag.
That shizzle.
I didn’t remember asking to learn this curriculum and yet i think, as i turn towards Elder Wisdom…it’s exactly the medicine I need.
To be undone by my own Life is humbling and sacred (scary too.)
If you find yourself alone…in the dark night and Fear comes knocking…join me in meeting it with as much Presence as you can…even if that only looks like not leaving yourself…just STAY.
I’ve had to remind myself that even in the BIG shizzle moments, I can stay…hand on my heart and just repeat over and over…
“I Am Here.”
