04/22/2026
Some nights bring you right back to the life you fought so hard to hold onto.
Yesterday, Brynlee got to go to her brothers baseball game again, sitting in her own chair like we always used to, completely in her element. This is her favorite thing about being there, getting her popcorn, settling in, and cheering on her brothers like they’re the only players on that field. She doesn’t miss a moment. She doesn’t hold back. And hearing her little voice out there again, cheering them on, is something I’ve missed in a way I don’t even have words for.
During the game, I took her to the park for the first time since everything happened, and she spotted one of those little tunnels that kids run through without even thinking. Something that would take most kids ten seconds ended up taking her over three minutes, and I sat there watching every second of it. I offered to help her, but she didn’t want it. She turned herself around inside that tunnel, used her legs to push herself back, tried crawling forward, stopping and starting, figuring it out in her own way until she finally made it through.
And then she looked at me like it was nothing, and wanted to do it again. And again.
That’s the part that gets me.
Because I am so proud of her for not giving up, for pushing through, for finding a way even when it’s hard. But at the same time, watching her struggle with something so small hits me right in the heart, because this is what cancer took from her. The ease. The ability to just be a kid without having to think about it, without having to work twice as hard just to do the same things.
She’s strong in ways most people will never understand.
But she shouldn’t have to be.
And yet she keeps showing up, keeps trying, keeps pushing through like it’s just who she is.
And maybe that’s what amazes me the most.