01/24/2026
Making Friends with Demons
A couple weeks ago, I posted about the pitfalls of not supporting yourself when making changes in your life. I hadn’t slept much in days, did not spend hours revising that post like I normally would, and just “word vomited” like one of my friends likes to say. 😊 I truly appreciate the kind words and support I received after that post; you all are wonderful ❤
I find that every day is a new day full of learning and growth, and for those days leading up to that post I felt like I was moving backward instead of forward and was really struggling with that. The same day I made the post, I stressed myself into a migraine and was completely rooted in my body – the pain radiated throughout and highlighted so many areas where things were stored to be worked on. I swear I could feel every vertebra in my spine, even where parts are missing – could feel the bulged and missing discs in between – the joints in my hips and legs – nerve endings in random parts of the body - and the tightened muscles from tension in my neck and shoulders. The pain started in my head, radiated down to my toes, and worked it’s way back up until I was light and sound sensitive. Even the movement of air and clothes on my skin ached. I did get some sleep that night, from pure exhaustion – my body just shut down.
However, something miraculous happened before I went to bed. I was moving around the house preparing for bed the best I could, and felt something detach. I still had enough presence of mind to observe, thank the Gods, and kinda “watched?” “felt?” “understood?” (not sure which word to use)…
Please bear with me here, this is going to sound weird lol. It ‘seemed’ like a ghost was leaving my body, in the shape of all the things that hurt so badly – I could ‘see’ my spine, my shoulders, the nerve endings and soft tissue, as it separated from my body. They were mostly connected but were curled up almost in a fetal position, and sorta floated behind my body. I made a conscious decision to walk away from it and did, at which time it dissipated into thin air. And even though my body still ached because the physical doesn’t transition quickly, I felt “lighter”. Then I went to bed, finally found a comfortable position, and passed out (for lack of a better term). The next morning, I felt better mentally than I have in ages.
I mentioned before – we are our own worst enemies and it’s amazing the amount of bulls**t we put ourselves through. BUT! We are also our own best saviors. A little bit of mindfulness, ‘listening’ to our Selves when s**t hits the fan, and letting go instead of obsessing truly does go a long way in being okay with ourselves. I’m no longer stuck in the endless loop of confusion and agitation that I created in my head, my body feels better than it has in a while (although I moved wrong last weekend and have had to pay close attention to walking correctly since then), and the best part is I’M SLEEPING!
As always, if you’re still with me, thanks for following along on this wild ride. There is a point to the rambling, 😊 and I promise I’ll get there eventually.
In the alternative healing community, I have made mention many times that I am not a healer, I’m a facilitator. I do not work with people so I can heal them, I help them bring to light what they can heal and walk them through it. For a Reiki or energy work session, that’s not what it “looks like”, but not all things happen during a healing session on the physical plane. There are so many ways to facilitate that healing for our Selves… Some are physical - getting a massage, an EFT practice, using pendulums or other metaphysical “partners” (
