01/07/2026
There becomes a time when dinner dates aren’t what they use to. Hypervigilence and memories of past traumatic experiences are now the movie thats playing.
Lets be honest, it sucks…for both people.
Our spouses want a nice night out, something that might rekindle a little spark. Then out of nowhere they see the look, the stare. The erie quietness takes over as does the saddness, the night won’t be what they wanted.
For us, we want the same as them but suddenly a noise, a smell, or a loud sound and our minds are suddenly everywhere but where we are. Our minds enter fight or flight mode not realizing we are safe and sitting for dinner with our loved one. Our bodies are dumping chemicals to keep us safe, yet we are safe and our minds dont know it.
When its time to come back to earth, we are tired, burnt out, and overcome with emotion. Both of us….
A first responders brain will be physically altered after enough exposure to trauma. Its not their fault. As much as the spouse wants a great night, so do they and the guilt of not being normal and feeling bad sets in and takes over.
For the spouse, the loneliness sets in. Is this something she can talk to her friends about or will they judge her? or judge him? Who will understand?
Communicate with each other. Be honest, be real. In this world of judgement you have each other. Stay positive, seek help.