04/29/2025
In the very first days of my sobriety, I something life-changing:
real faith takes real grit.
Spiritual grit.
Five weeks sober, I was living in downtown Denver — sleeping on the hardwood floor of my niece’s walk-in closet.
There were drug addicts on every corner. Homelessness surrounded me. Trauma and PTSD still clung to my mind like shadows.
I had no car. No money. No real direction.
But what I did have — what God was giving me — was a flicker of radical belief.
I sat in that little closet one night, back against the wall, and made a list of what I wanted for my future.
At the very top of that list?
➔ Go to the temple.
After 27 years lost in addiction and destruction, it felt almost laughable.
A dumpster fire life, broken past, shattered promises —
Who was I to even think I could make it back?
But in that moment, I chose to radically believe anyway.
I decided to believe who God said I could become — not who my past said I was.
I started walking the mile and a half to church, one trembling step at a time.
Some days I was barely upright.
And through it all, Satan whispered in my ear:
“You’ll never make it. You’re just a drug addict. You’re too far gone, Kelly. The temple isn’t for you.”
But every time he whispered, I whispered back:
I know who I am. I am His.
One step at a time, one gritty, imperfect prayer at a time —
I fought forward.
Until finally — on my birthday in April of 2018 — I found myself standing at the doors of the Meridian Temple, surrounded by my sisters.
A living, breathing miracle.
I learned something that day:
➔ God will always make a way.
➔ He will send angels. He will open doors we thought were sealed shut forever.
But what He asks from us...
is to dig our heels in and believe.
Radically. Fiercely. Even when it feels impossible.
If we do,
He will meet us with miracles.
Absolute miracles.
This story comes from the very first inspirational email I sent out, and if you’d like a little weekly encouragement and gospel-centered inspiration, just reply with your email address — it’s one of my greatest joys to share these pieces of my heart and His miracles with you.💥