07/20/2014
Just thinking......death. With the recent passing of our beloved Simon I was exposed to several experiences. It is really true that everyone has their own ways of processing the loss. After the initial tears and goodbyes the reality hits you square in the face. They are gone "forever" and not going to be your physical realm again. It sounds good to think and say that it was for the best or they are in a better place, but the heart is a whole other matter. My husband immediately goes into quiet mode and retreats into isolation and sleep. My reaction is to get moving doing anything to not have to sit in the uncomfortable silence and pain. Dave spent yesterday in deep reflection and I cleaned my entire office from top to bottom. The tears came to both of us all day yesterday and starting to look like today might have the same effect.
I asked myself why losing a pet is so hard and hits us so deep in the soul. Easy....they are the true expression of unconditional love! Our pets are our best buddy no matter what. Who is there to greet you everyday when you get home? Who can make you laugh and smile just by being themselves? Who can snuggle up to you and make a bad day seem not so bad? Who do you let lick your face in the morning? Who can get away with doing mischievous deeds and we we still hug them and tell them we love them? Who never argues, or holds a grudge? The answer is our furry companions with all the unconditional love that we have the honor of sharing on this journey. I believe God knew that we would need this kind of love in our lives and that is why he gave us furry friends. When the world looks so full of hate and anger we just have to look into the eyes of our pets and see the true love of God reflected back at us. My husband said this is the last pet we are going to have besides Daisy. He can only see the immediate pain and loss were I see the beautiful gift that Simon brought into our lives. Simon graced us with his never ending charm and sense of humor for 15 years. During his last 4 months of hospice care Simon showed me that love endures until the final breath. When you balance out the good with the bad, the good far out surpasses the bad. In life there is a little rain mixed in with the sunshine. We need both to be able to feel the total expression of what this life has to offer. Simon was our little ray of sunshine and though the rain is falling gently in our hearts we know the sun will shine again. Thank you Simon for being that beautiful, wonderful, amazing expression of God's love. Always in our hearts!