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My Mental Mumblings My Mental Mumblings is a personal blog of stories & thoughts based upon my need to exorcise demons that inhabit my mind, heart, & soul. Welcome!

It's my attempt to create a repository of good stories, healing memes, & engaging welcoming discussions.

An ember sparked will softly glowAnd fed by fuel, will grow and growI once was cinder, sparked by youFirst timid, 'til t...
16/08/2022

An ember sparked will softly glow
And fed by fuel, will grow and grow
I once was cinder, sparked by you
First timid, 'til the flames then grew
And so our start was touch of dawn
With amber hue for I was drawn
To eyes so welcoming and warm
I never guessed you'd do me harm
Like morning glory, love in June
The rapture of mid-afternoon
Romance of which the ancients wrote
Our passion had no antidote
And with the dust, though scarlet tinged
Our love began to come unhinged
For clouds arrived which filled your eyes
Extinguishing bright twilight skies
With cold of night, came shadows fall
And I could not tear down your wall
By midnight's hour, the fire was dead
Mere ashes smoldered in its stead
You left, and should you reappear
I vow to shun you, now I fear
The very thing for which I yearn
When touched, and then again to burn

I collect hand photos…have for years. I have a thing with hands. Well, rather, I have a thing for what hands can do. I o...
29/07/2022

I collect hand photos…have for years. I have a thing with hands. Well, rather, I have a thing for what hands can do. I often ask people to send me a picture of their hands after they do something amazing with them…or I take a picture myself if I’m on-scene.

Our hands make us human. Our apposable thumbs were the game-changer of evolution that enabled us to make tools, create art, make music, build wars, and all the other things we’ve chosen to do…and all of it with our own two hands.

Of course, I prefer the positive creative efforts and powers of human hands, but the evils hands create are just as impressionable and important.

I love the dirt on hands that grow things. The dirt under the nails that bring the unctuous earthy smell of magic created in taking seeds and nurturing life that nourishes us, gives us the air we breathe, and cleans our atmosphere on a planetary level. Human hands do that.

I love the grease on hands that work on mechanical things. Engines or mechanisms to ease our toil or take us places. Hands that do this type of work are attached to minds of physics and engineering. These hands solve problems and allow us to travel and ease the burdens of our work to exist. Human hands do that.

I love hands that are covered in creative elements like clay, paint, and bits of stone. These hands birth the beauty of our world in human interpretation of nature and the aspects of our existence we want to capture in efforts to define who and what we are. Human hands do that.

I love the hands that are gnarled after years of weaving, sewing, and knitting the threads of plants, animals, or human-made synthetics. These hands clothe us, make our world comfortable, tell our stories in tapestry, and provide the nets that catch our fish and keep our herds within set boundaries. Human hands do that. Human hands do that.

I love the hands that heal – whether fixing an illness through touch or being the initial vessel of holding in the birth of a new generation. Healing hands keep us well, whole, and bonded. Human hands do that.

Our hands hold the caresses that feed and produce the passions that are the beginnings of our own procreation.

Our hands are the deliverers of parental affection and trust built upon helping to make our offsprings’ boo-boos better.

Our hands build the bonds of industry in the handshakes and fist-bumps that generate colleagues seeking the business passions that drive us and forge invention.

Our hands hold the shiny trinkets and jewels that demonstrate our wealth and announce the bonds and ties of our clan. They hold the vows we make to each other in symbol and strength.

But most of all, I adore the hands of the aged. The twisted, tired, silent storytellers of the person they belong to. Wrinkles and scars. Missing digits or damaged nailbeds. Unremovable grown-in rings so ancient in their placement and lack of removal that they now rest permanently on the old branches of the bearer to meet their end together in fire or earth.

Wouldn’t it be grand if hands could share all they’ve seen, touched, and impacted throughout one single lifetime?

Oh, the tales they could tell. But that is not to be, and these tentacles of tenderness, terror, and treasures – to me – are the true measure of us all.

If you can, if you want, show me your hands, and tell me the things they do or have done...it'll help me know you better.

They metTree and vineThe tree, ancient, shelled, rooted, unexpectingThe vine, supple, fragile, dependent, unattainableCa...
13/07/2022

They met
Tree and vine
The tree, ancient, shelled, rooted, unexpecting
The vine, supple, fragile, dependent, unattainable

Caresses of the vine tickled a new fancy
Acquiescence; the sapling's singular ambition
Harmlessly climbing, straight, sprouting new growth
Unseen leaves of three, trident darts of future endeavors

The tree forgot the intoxication of songbirds
The change of season hastens a conifer's falling
Needles tumbling toward a willful abyss wantingly
Filled with yellowed bricks to purgatory or worse
Impossible choices of the convenience of causation
Versus forging a path of favorable freedoms of fancy

Incurable horrors contract mandatory positivity
The query of process, separating a pernicious symbiosis
Mechanical intervention of the gentlest intent
Resetting determination, identification, reorganization, and care
Not a cure but a nudge, a crutch, a hope, a reminder
Of songbirds gifts, and untasted sunshines yet offered
The poison had seeped in profoundly and entirely

Relentless tick-tocking of that lethargic curative clock
Every breath counted, each heartbeat unexpected
Getting louder, stronger in a percussive promise parade
Sudden summer solar assurances in a shared space; no longer

The worst may be past
The worst has been passed

How people use social media is strange. We have our reasons why we're here - posting, sharing, exposing, recording. We c...
14/06/2022

How people use social media is strange. We have our reasons why we're here - posting, sharing, exposing, recording. We choose to add things that showcase our humanity - good & bad. We participate or watch. Compelling the compelled. A daily check into how friends & enemies are "doing." A teeny facet of who we are & what we're about - if we share. Bringing us together & tearing asunder. All created by us, for us, about us.


Some of my professional life is spent building brands & monitoring my clients' exposure on social sites. 20+ years of being the digital "fly-on-the-wall" of others' lives & companies. A fascinating microcosm of humanity.


Most share moments that matter. Some overshare [guilty]. Others watch silently from the forgotten shadows of membership without participation. Newborns, silly memes, happy smiles of events are counter-served death notices, lost pet flyers, & rage-filled tales of broken marriages. All consumed.

Our profiles are a permanent diary of our lives & what we are willing to put into the digital ticker-tape. Always running, captured, & cataloged.


A hidden blessing & curse are profiles of the dead. A digital footprint of our heart's journey with the lost left behind for us in our social media connections. Shared videos. Personal jokes, Rants of support. Words of love. It's lovely, really. I often think about the things I post & ask - "should I post this?" I ponder the possibility of these words/images being my last. “Is this my truth?” If yes - posted. If no - saved to ponder the purpose of its creation.

I’ve 17 accounts linked to the dead. It hurts. But there's a certain comfort in visiting their social sites. Remembering, reminding yourself that there was a time - & social caught it. Right now, as I’m still catching my breath, I'm very thankful for that.


Whatever you choose to post, if it's important to you, it's important to us. Post it & we’ll know you better. Post what does you proud & true. Know if you’re reading this & you're lost - I'll visit you here & will remember it all fondly. I bet others will too. Social media allows us to visit those we miss. Do you do this too? Tell me about it so we can know you better

Everyone should have the privilege to love freely without fear.🌈  Happy Pride 🏳️‍🌈
01/06/2022

Everyone should have the privilege to love freely without fear.

🌈 Happy Pride 🏳️‍🌈

We bring people into our lives & categorize them on the level of importance & involvement we grant them. Sounds odd, but...
31/05/2022

We bring people into our lives & categorize them on the level of importance & involvement we grant them.

Sounds odd, but we all do it.

You have your party friend. Your day-spent-shopping-person. Your scary movie supporter. Your travel buddy. Your shoulder to cry on. Your phone call listener. Your fair-weather pal and broken-heart comrade...and so many many more.

Over the course of time, you change the levels of your people. Again, we all do it.

You make choices on when a person in your keep is given more or less access to your essence.

Sometimes your people drift away. Sometimes you distance until they are a memory of long-ago days.

We all do it.

But for some, there's a precipice of self tolerance we've hovered on...a place of no return.

During our time there, on a razor-edged choice, some come to a realization that we're meant to be here to live up to our desired character and purpose. We're not quitters.

That cliffside we tip-toed along changed our tolerances... not of ourselves, but for ourselves.

Forever altering who we allow in to where we exist now. We're stronger in our protection of self and our determination to

So if we quit you, it is because we choose ourselves over the option to keep you.

Our cliff, once found, is never too far away

And the people we keep now are here because they focus our attention away from that precipice of destruction.

Because we quit anyone that points us back to the cliff... because we choose us first.



Out of the mouths of babes...or shows our babies watch...
30/05/2022

Out of the mouths of babes...or shows our babies watch...

Pi**ed off? Change is up to us!Your vote is your most powerful weapon. Wield it!    isAmerica
25/05/2022

Pi**ed off?
Change is up to us!

Your vote is your most powerful weapon. Wield it!

isAmerica

I've been quiet long enough...too many ripplesDo you ever stop to think about the dozens of kids that witnessed the carn...
25/05/2022

I've been quiet long enough...too many ripples

Do you ever stop to think about the dozens of kids that witnessed the carnage of another 19 children being mowed down? How will what they saw, smelled, & felt impact their formative minds? How are they supposed to grow up healthy, happy, & normal knowing nowhere is safe? Ripple

What about the teachers killed because they did what they could to protect other's children while they were all in danger during this 45-minute siege? Why would anyone want to become a teacher knowing when lockdown procedures & campuses guarded by cops is the new normal? Ripple

What about the SROs - a new term for police created a decade ago making them the first line of defense in the "warzones of learning" for OUR children in the land of the Land of the Free & Home of the Brave? Ripple

What about our teens & youth? They've seen these mass shootings over & over with no real solution? Our youth see our complacency and complicity as WE allow the few in power to remain & continue the United States of Corruption. SO ironic that one of the targets of mass shooters are the very buildings where we teach our youth the lie of the tenets of "We the People...?" Ripple

What about you? Is this the country you want for your family, yourself? When will there be enough dead kids for you to act?

Stop the bu****it of "it's mental health," "it's broken homes," "it's violence in video games & movies! It could be any one of those things - but it is ALWAYS guns too! ALWAYS!!

Stop the bu****it of the 2nd Amendment - written about having the RIGHT TO BEAR ARMS IN MILITIAS in a time when this nation was birthing itself into existence. It's not that world anymore.

What about 18-year-old Salvador Ramos? Yesterday, he opened fire killing 19 children, 2 teachers, & wounding about 16 others. Earlier that day, he shot & wounded his 66-year-old grandmother. He needed help, not an assault rifle gun. We, all of us Americans failed him because we are allowing "We the few" to control instead of "We the people." This ripple is ours... WE OWN IT BECAUSE WE ALLOW IT.

Imagine if WE THE PEOPLE actually acted... Oh, the ripple we could create!! 🇺🇸

Believe people when they show you who they areGood or bad, for better or worseVow to be true to yourself and honor your ...
01/05/2022

Believe people when they show you who they are

Good or bad, for better or worse

Vow to be true to yourself and honor your worth

Don't shame them for doing the same

Even when they don't understand you

Or worse, when they don't even try

Trust their actions that don't match their words

It's okay to be disappointed but do not be a martyr

You don't need validation when you trust your own magic

So trust it

Live it

Love that what makes you you

Even when it hurts... especially then 

Honor you

You are the most precious thing you have

Be careful of your keeperThose held closest to your heartThe souls you let in deeperWith hope they'll do their partPray ...
29/04/2022

Be careful of your keeper

Those held closest to your heart

The souls you let in deeper

With hope they'll do their part

Pray your faith in them is sound

Keep your magic true in clarity

What you search may not be found

It seldom is when such a rarity

Joy and love make all a fool

Tuck back in and try to breathe

Done either way and cruel

Comes the surge, the sin, the seethe

It's all a peace of learning

Their lies to make it seem okay

Whilst you still bear all the burning

Yesterday's lessons hurt most today

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