01/03/2026
Tomorrow she arrived.
My baby isn’t a baby anymore.
And somehow the room is the same,
the light still falls in the same places,
the laundry still waits,
the kettle still whistles,
but time has quietly rearranged everything.
Yesterday she was a weight against my chest,
a warm, milk-sweet yes,
a fist the size of a seashell
opening and closing on the world.
Now she is gravity with opinions.
A little comet with an agenda.
A laugh that arrives before I’m ready,
a “no” that blooms like a flag,
a “mine” like a spell.
Her knees are learning the language of floors.
Her hands, once only asking,
now reaching with certainty,
pointing at life as if naming it into being.
And I,
I am holding two truths at once,
the ache of the vanishing
and the wonder of the arrival.
Because nothing is actually gone.
It’s just changed its form.
The baby is still there
inside the toddler,
like the moon inside daylight,
invisible, but present,
pulling tides I can’t control.
Some nights I miss
the sleepy surrender,
the little sigh that meant
she trusted the world because I was in it.
Some mornings I marvel
at how she stands there,
bright-eyed and unafraid,
as if she has always belonged to herself.
This is what love does.
It makes a home,
then teaches me how to open the door.
So I let her grow.
I let her become.
I let her run toward her own name.
And when my heart tightens,
when I ache for the smaller version,
I remember:
I didn’t lose my baby.
I witnessed a miracle
keeping its promise.