04/24/2023
While in Journey space recently I told myself that this was a story. That my husband Joe was just a story. It rocked me to my core. I told myself that wasn't true, this life was as real as real can be.
I was real, Joe was real and my family was real!
I felt, in that moment, what if I was the only conscious being and all this was just a thought?? S**t! It put me beyond a beyond and I did not like it one bit.
Then weeks later while it circled in my mind, I thought..if that was true, minus the panic, Source creator of all that is would have been the one and only until IT started to create its creation.
Because I am only the creation and not the creator "I" didn't love the idea of being alone.
" I" am not a one, I am an all. And that makes me feel complete. I am not separate and though creation I am not a one. As for the story, we are a story.
We create our lives as a creation of self. An identity we recreate over and over again until we create a new identity. Always unfolding into a something. And the panic I had that night gave way to love of Source and the creation process. I am a story and someday no one will know of it.
Maybe someone will, but most likely I will simply be a space in time. Not an individual but an era of a people who won't exist anymore yet left a mark in our creation process.