03/09/2026
I want to share something from a very honest and vulnerable place in my heart.
Many of you know that I live with chronic health conditions, but what that really means day to day is something that’s hard to explain unless you experience it. Some days the pain and exhaustion are manageable. Other days they are completely debilitating. There are times when my body feels like it has simply shut down, and no amount of willpower can push through it.
And believe me… if willpower alone could fix it, I would never miss a thing.
One of the things that matters most to me in this life is being there for others. The work I do with my mental health and addiction support community is not just something I run—it’s something I feel deeply called to do. My website, the meetings, the one-on-one conversations with people who are struggling… they are incredibly important to me. Helping people find even the smallest bit of peace, hope, or direction is something I pour my whole heart into.
I know that sometimes I’m the only person someone feels they can reach out to. Sometimes I’m the only one willing to sit with someone in their pain and help them look for a different path, an unconventional solution, or just remind them they matter and they’re not alone. That responsibility is something I never take lightly.
Because of that, I often put others before myself. My own self-care is something I struggle with because when someone is hurting, my instinct is to help. I’m working on finding better balance, but it’s a process.
So if there are times when I cancel plans, disappear for a bit, or have to step away from things, please understand it is never because I don’t care. It is never because my commitments aren’t important to me. The truth is, sometimes my body simply reaches a point where it cannot keep going.
There are days when the pain and exhaustion become so overwhelming that the only thing I can do is lay still, cry, and try to rest until it passes. In those moments, even the smallest tasks can feel impossible.
But please never—not even for a moment—question my commitment to the people I try to help or the causes I believe in so deeply. My heart is fully invested in this work and in the people I care about.
The reality is that I am disabled, and I can only do the very best I can with the body I have. Some days my best looks like strength, productivity, and being present for everyone. Other days my best simply means surviving the pain and allowing myself to rest.
But even on those quiet days when I’m forced to step back… my heart is still there. I still care. I’m still rooting for every single person who reaches out for help.
Thank you to the people who show patience, kindness, and understanding when I need to pause and take care of myself. Your compassion means more than words can ever express.
Please just know this…
Even when I’m quiet, I still care deeply.
Even when I have to rest, I’m still committed.
And even when my body struggles, my heart will always show up. ❤️