12/10/2025
Mornings are so incredibly hard for me. My trauma dreams perpetuate night after night. I take a low dose prescription medication to just let me sleep; and the dreams just surface. Each morning I wake up needing to almost shake off my head; like a dog shaking off after being in the water. My body is still tired, my head is heavy, my heart and my chest feel a sense of heaviness to breath. It is so hard to shake off what was.
And, as Miranda shared with me this week in my podcast, that empty drawer she keeps in her dresser for her partner; for the times he would stay over was all she was able to give to him; the only space to share. To keep herself safe, she could not fully let him in. I know that until I can fully open my mind, my body and let life in, I am going to continue to have these dreams. I have to let the past go and open myself up for all kinds of new possibilities. ~ julie
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