02/08/2026
Maybe this is why it is so hard for me to sit still. I was conditioned for chaos, and staying busy was how I stayed safe.
Sitting peacefully where others can view does not feel safe regardless whether I am in a safe space. I cannot sit still and watch tv, a movie, a game, a rodeo; I have to have something else to do. I work on my computer, do needlepoint, do some kind of organization activity, my nails - something. Just sitting feels so unsafe. Peace is something I only truly feel when I am alone; when I am in nature; where I feel safe.
I am relearning; reconditioning. One step at a time, one day at a time.
What are you relearning? ~ julie
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