02/23/2026
" eVeRyoNE wAnTS tO BecOmE a SHaMaN NowADaYS. "
No one talks about what it actually costs.
An ex-fiancé who promised he would guide me and support me through this journey… left when it was convenient for him. When his family said I was doing devil’s work. That I was bringing bad luck. That I was using him.
Friends of over 10 years, the ones I trusted, when I asked what I should do next to improve my quality of life… told me a holistic approach wouldn’t bring money in. As if money was the point. I didn’t even give a s**t about that. I just wanted to feel better. I just wanted to live better.
When I confided in my parents, they shamed me. Silenced me. Told me I was chasing something that wasn’t meant for me. That I wasn’t somebody who was supposed to walk this path. That it was all a scam.
I watched the people I loved and valued the most not support me one bit.
Walking this path isn’t something I glamorized. It isn’t something I woke up and decided would be cute or trendy. Even now, I don’t wake up thinking, “I want to carry this.” I wake up wanting to do whatever it takes to get by. To have a better quality of life. To feel alive again. To feel joy. To feel human.
This path is not aesthetic.
It is paralyzing pain.
It is fear.
It is doubt.
It is losing people you thought would stay.
It is being misunderstood by the ones closest to you.
Until it happens to you… until you are forced to embark on it… may you stay filled with joy and never have to know what it takes to get here.
So go ahead and mock it.
Belittle it.
Not understand it.
The universe has a way of humbling everyone in its own time.
But this?
This is just me speaking from my pain.
Most people see my joy.
They see the light.
They see the smile.
They don’t see the depth it took to get here.
Thank you ZooHlub for speaking out and empowering those who embark this path.