03/13/2026
It was a little over 1 year ago (March 5th) that I had my Mastectomy due to being diagnosed with 2 different types of Invasive Breast Cancer.
I remember it was on Ash Wednesday last year, my surgery. When I was very drugged up and they were wheeling me into the surgery room, I remember looking up at the Anesthesiologist and saying, "For Lent this year, I am giving up my breasts". Haha She said back to me that that was the funniest thing any patient had told her in a surgery room. I felt proud of my "under the influence of pain medication" quick wit.🥰 lol
After surgery, when i was coherent again, and in my hospital room for the next 3 days, I groaned in embarrassment after vaguely remembering saying that about Ash Wednesday and Lent. I then gently laughed at myself.
I have gone through treatments, 2 more surgeries since then and today am on Endocrine Therapy for the next 10 years.
Next week, I go in for my yearly exam and more tests, with my Oncologist to make sure I am still cancer free.
It has been a journey. I have had to give myself permission to grieve the trauma of looking and feeling different due to side effects from cancer itself, medication and treatment.
Chronic fatigue, bone loss and joint pain, along with changes in my skin tone and loss of collagen and calcium, have taken a toll on me even just in this first year of recovery.
Through the grief and radical acceptance of a different appearance - transitioning into this new me on the inside and out - I am also forever grateful.
Holding space for both grief and gratitude has been healing.🩷
God has placed amazing people in my life these past 3 years.
My adult sons have been tremendous support and I have even grown closer to each of them through all of this.
Life is fragile. The older we get, that reality just hits different.
God doesn't necessarily change our difficult seasons in life, but through it all, we change.
God goes before us, behind us and beside us...never leaving us as He gives us strength, comfort and wraps us up in His peace and love as we take those days moment by moment.
Leaning into my faith, my humor and spending intentional mindful moments in nature, in music, in writing, with loving pets, with amazing friends and supportive family has sustained me, and continues to.✨️
If you are in a difficult season, take each day moment by moment. Fill your life with those special things and people that light your soul up.
You are not alone. You are meant to be here. You matter. And you are loved.
Check in on your friends today with a text or phone call. Letting others know you are thinking of them makes such a big impact and is a healing balm for those who are struggling.
Thank you all for being a part of my life. It means more than you know.🩷Truly.
I look forward to continually sharing my journey with you aling with some fun and wonderful new chapters in my life.✨️🫶
Much Love,
Linnea
Begin Within Hope Therapy