07/28/2025
Tonight, is my final party before my mastectomy. I've never taken off a month from work before so that makes me super anxious. Thank goodness I have my updated website for my clients to shop while I am unable to do parties or I wouldn't know what to do. Last night, I had a few mini meltdowns. I am rather attached to my breasts! We've been together my whole life. I've never once wanted to change them and now, here we are...parting ways for all eternity!
I was washing clothes and prepping for my party last night and as I hung my bras, it hit me. It hit me hard. I will never need these bras again. I calmed down after sitting on the floor crying as I held Rucker. Then, I got in the shower and lost it again as I was washing my chest. I calmed down again. This morning, when I woke-up, Rucker came over and put his head on my chest and there came the dang tears again. We have our morning and evening routines that will be paused for at least a month which makes me super sad. I am so fortunate because everything was discovered so quickly. I am thankful because I have an army of prayer warriors praying for me. I am grateful that Lauryn and Sergio are coming to take care of me the first 10 days and then Kaelyb and Des offered to let me come stay with them for as long as I need. I am blessed to have my parents who are available to help on the days my kids are unable to. Seriously, thank you to all my friends and family from near and far who have reached out to me, who have sent gifts, who have gone to dinners with me, who have sat and hung out with me, who have prayed with me, and who have offered to help me. This is a scary time for me and I can't wait until this chapter is behind me. I have a lot of love and life still left in me and so many lives left to change!
Please pray for me! My surgery is Wednesday at 5 am in Austin.