04/25/2022
Integrity is important to me. It is to be whole, undivided. And that takes honesty. I’m going to give this gift to myself to kick off my 38th year.
So, I’d like to share something with you if I may. To be honest. I have decided to put this beloved company on pause, for the most part. That looks like only taking very very few weddings, events and workshops at this moment in time. It also means, for the most part, not creating products. It looks like rarely checking my email. It looks like prioritizing blog posts on my website, but not doing them on a schedule. I’m hoping this honesty means I’ll be posting to Instagram more frequently, but I’m not going to stress about it.
Because. Because I found myself constantly wondering when I would get to do work. Because I was thinking about this when I was playing with my daughters. Because I was stressed and not actually present. Because honestly, what I want most is to radiate love and bask in joy… and I was doing neither by constantly feeling the need to be doing something other than what I was doing.
The pause: “pause” because one day, I’ll have a gorgeous workshop space in the middle of a flower farm and vineyard, and it will be a destination spot for workshops, possibly also weddings. One day, when my babies aren’t babies and need me a little less, it will feel more easily joyous to spend my time playing with flowers and teaching other people to through the language of flowers.
So. That’s where I’m at. I was afraid to share because I’ve spent my life focused on achieving career-wise/financially and this is a big departure from that mindset. To not be striving in this way feels embarrassing, if I’m being honest. But. Really, truly, what’s most important to me is loving as a verb and sharing joy. So. Here I am. Slowing down. Slowing all the way down.
It would mean a lot to me if you stand by me for this part, too.
Warmly,
Miquila (Mika)
❤️