08/09/2020
There was something big I needed an answer to in life –it was something I had already written several Pros Cons lists over...something I dwelled on and sorted through and systematically dissected...something I talked to myself about many times, and yet I couldn’t arrive at the, “RIGHT” answer. So, as I often do now when I have one of these challenges, I brought it to meditation.
I chose my seat, I sat up tall, I rolled my shoulders down and back, I began to slow my breath, and I gently put my weighty decision out to the universe (“Pssst, hey Universe, God, Mother Nature, Baba, Ma, Swami, SOMEBODY –I need an answer to this. Yes or No. A or B. Off or On. I can’t figure this one out!”)...
Then, I let go of the question entirely.
I went back to my breath, lengthening it a little bit more with each inhale...staying in awareness at the pause in between...enjoying a slow, full exhale...I continued on this way as I wandered deeper into my meditation...deeper into myself or farther out into space...wherever I was, it was peaceful and I was free of the burden of this puzzle.
Then, SUDDENLY, as if a loud marching band had just begun to perform in front of me, I heard, “FLEXIBILITY!!!!”
I laughed and laughed and was shaken from my quiet meditation. “Flexibility!” I laughed, “Why didn’t I consider that?!” All this time I had pored over these two different outcomes...I exhausted a lot of energy in trying to uncover the best answer, only to be shown that maybe the answer is not so much in a YES or a NO, but rather in the idea of being FLEXIBLE.
Just as Siddhartha says, “When someone is searching, then it might easily happen that the only thing their eyes still see, is that what they search for, that they are unable to find anything...”
If you are out vehemently searching for something right now, maybe just put it out to the Universe for a moment instead...close your eyes...take a few deep breaths...loosen your grip on the reins just a bit, and see what comes back to you.
