03/12/2026
Our development -and apparently that of nature overall- doesn’t move in a perfect straight line. It circles, at times in the same place, without depth, without elevation, and other time we assimilate, click, experience epiphanies. The latter is what can make us spiral deeper in knowledge and higher to broaden our perspective. This has nothing to do with accumulation of information, even though it can be of help in the process.
More often than we’d like to admit, we need to return to the same themes we didn’t give much importance. And other times we even experience the same wounds, in the same or a different form. The same questions we were sure to have figured out might pop out in our heads and make experience a sense of confusion and insecurity.
When we go through this, the first feeling that might come without much warning can be discouragement. In some corner of our mind we think that we’re back right where we started. Don’t accept this suggestion without critical thought. I found out that more often than not, it was an automatic, self-imposed illusion.
With more discernment and self-compassion combined, we can see past that veil of illusion the fact that we’re meeting the same lesson -or this lesson with an upgrade, now that we’re ready- from a different “level” of awareness.
That what it means for the path to be like a spiral. We move (symbolically speaking) “two steps forward” to explore, to overcome our limits, to open our mind which tends to crystallize if we live it passive for long enough, and “one step back” in order to assimilate, feelings, experiences, lessons.
When we confuse these lessons for standing in one place, miss what’s really going on. What’s truly going on is that we revisit what we thought you understood - it can be patience, boundaries, discipline, love- and we see something we couldn’t see before.
We don’ outgrow every mistake once and for all. We integrate them gradually. And often pain of the ego, or pain of regret is part of the ‘package’. In cases like this, the pain we feel in this return is another layer of illusion that is striped. The less friction, the less resistance towards this fact, the less we suffer.