06/02/2026
To think a year ago today I had my 1st of 2 open heart surgeries. They would fall almost exactly 9 months apart eachother and I would lose my child. I had no idea what the LORD was setting in front of me and to this day, I still don't. I only know that he is not done. I have been through the most incredible physical pain as well as the most traumatizing mental and emotional anguish that I would wish on no one ever. But the bigger part of all of this is how he has sustained me and never left me. Even now sitting here reflecting on all he has done and how he continues to move through my life it steals my breath. I know their are more mountains left to climb but this year the one thing I learned through all of it is he will never leave me. I can promise you the only reason I am here today was because he carried me. And he put the most incredible and loving people in my life to help me move through all of this mess. They were at times the backs that I leaned on when I thought I couldn't do anymore. Even when I was a mess of a human they still loved me. I have always said "I am not lucky, but I'm blessed and there is a very big difference", "I'll stick with being blessed". GOD has been in the fire with me and he held me together. He has heard me cry, he's heard me plead, he's heard me in my anger, and he has heard me in my Thanksgiving. And through all of it he has given me a testimony of love, hope, strength, steadfastness, and unwavering faith because he does not make mistakes and everything that comes to you in life he uses for your good and his glory. I do not know what this next year will bring me but I know that no matter what I face next I know that he will be with me through it all.
So with that I will keep pushing through. I will admit that all of this has done quite a number on my mental health. Thankfully, I started going back into the office this week and I keep going to cardiac Rehab. I feel myself get stronger everyday albeit a little exhausted. I don't know how I got up and just went to work everyday before but the trade off is I have not slept this good in LONG time . So hopefully that will stick around for a while. I certainly need it. The old ticker seems to be staying in good shape and so far (knock on wood) it's holding steady. I did have an echo done already and everything looks good 🙌. Next appt is in a week with my cardiologist so hopefully we can start backing off some meds. That would be the best I could ask for. Until next time Facebook fam ❤️🫀🩺
Enjoy this picture of me and my bestie Bill ❤️