17/03/2023
I was terrified of the pain of childbirth 👀 when I was pregnant with my second child. I wanted to experience a birth free of medical interventions and my plan was to birth at home, but I felt scared. Even though I’d already given birth unmedicated once before, midway through my third trimester I started obsessing over the fear of the pain. I was older than my first birth after all, and reading (too much, perhaps?) about all the complications that could arise. Even though I was taking all the right steps for a safe birth, I was so scared of my ability to endure the pain of a medication-free birth a second time.
Then a friend lent me her copy of Ina May Gaskin’s Spiritual Midwifery. This book was a great energetic reset for me, reminding me of the power of my body— it’s power, innate wisdom and strength. What touched me most about this book was the simple retelling of various birth stories; it’s incredibly powerful to read and hear real, raw birth stories as a reminder of the waves and stages of labor. Something about those stories helped me resonate and connect with the resilience of birthing people.
And in the end I had a beautiful birth and really ✨did have the strength✨ to ride the waves of labor after all. I whispered “Open, open, open. Down, down, down” to myself as a mantra to focus on.
Did you have a mantra or another method for managing pain in labor? I’d love to know in the comments below!