02/21/2026
This version of me was holding so much am not processing any of it. She held all in. She carried it all “so well”, or that’s what they say.
But she needed someone to hold her through this. She needed so much reassurance. She needed so much support. She needed so much help and guidance in this season of her life. 😭🫂
For anyone reading this - don’t do this to yourself. Don’t hold it all alone. Don’t feel the need to be “strong” forgetting that being strong means reaching out for support and guidance and holding.
We are not meant to do this alone. We are not meant to hold it all together.
Life is hard at times and there is so much strength and courage in reaching out and being vulnerable about what you need and what you are going through. I wish I could go back and tell this version of me all of this and to hold her through these times.
The times she cried in the shower.
The times she held all in and swallowed her tears and sorrow.
The times she hid behind her biggest fears and uncertainties.
She didn’t have to but that’s how we got by then.
A bigger story to share that I just remembered was the horrific trauma of my lady parts after giving natural birth.
I’ll have to make sure to talk about this.
See you tomorrow on more about the BACK-story.
