03/01/2024
Sometimes, life comes at you fast (hi, Ferris Bueller). Other times, we move into seasons of slowness.
Postpartum is a season of slowness... of doing ~less~..and it's really, really hard to do.
I planned better for my postpartum experience this time around, but even with more deliberate planning, and having a spouse who was able to take more time off to support this slowness and restful period, I still got swept back up into the go-go-go lifestyle. It happens! To all of us. Our world is a beautiful, messy and constantly moving place with a strong gravitational pull.
For a few weeks, I've been feeling the effects of trying to move too fast and not being able to keep up: a sensation of being untethered, ungrounded. floating around, unable to find my center and my reason for the work that I do. After a difficult therapy session of realizing this and putting the feeling into words, I decided (with the help of many in my circle) that I need to prioritize continued slowness in this season. I'm not magically "done with postpartum" - not even close. My sweet baby is ~still~ a baby (albeit a big one)! I need to prioritize being in my cocoon still. This is what I need, what my family needs in this moment.
So: I'm slowing down. I'm moving back towards grounding practices. I'm finding my breath. ....and I'm pausing my regular classes - for now. I'll be around with events popping up here and there, but for now, I will be slow.
Wishing you all groundedness and peace.
