Power At Will Fitness (2025)

03/08/2022

I have set fire to everything. ❤️‍🔥

Some of these fires caused all things not in alignment to become ash and return to earth. Others were fires of rebirth and refinement. All fires have been of chaos and beauty. True trials by fire.

I have been in "hiding" for the past 8 months while my life was in upheaval. A ton has fallen away while blessings came rushing in to fill the space. I'll share more but later.

As the fires burned, I truly saw clearly that everything I was "living" was because of others opinions and direction that I believed to be more valuable than my own. (Sound familiar?)

I allowed the opinions of others to bury my power deep and it took a lot of digging to find that treasure once again. But the beautiful thing, that power never left or was given away. It was always just right there. And I'm done allowing things outside of myself to shovel s**t on top of that power.

As the fires around me have burned down, things are going to be different moving forward. On my path of spiritual development and healing, I see that "Health and Fitness" are deeper and more complex then what is understood and at the same time so much simpler than what society and culture makes it.

So here I am. Still shaky and disheveled but full of heart and love. I'm not sure what direction my soul will lead but I'm fully surrendering to the path. I don't think it was coincidence that I've been MIA for 8 months and now it's the 8/8 Lion's gate portal. There's a reason so to hell with "normal".

I leave you with this, where are you allowing your power to be buried? It's time to dig. Set some fires and let things burn! 🔥

19/01/2022

Anyone else still feeling the effects from the recent watery emotional Cancer Full Moon?! 🙋‍♀️

My rising is Cancer so I felt right at home but didn't mean I escaped the emotions that were going to well up! This past 2 weeks have been on the extreme opposite sides from sudden tragic loss to rejoicing and celebrating. Talk about a FULL F&*king sea of emotions that needed to be dealt with! 🌊

Today, I was able to get dolled up and play! Man, I tell ya it was exactly what I needed to release the last little bit of bottled up emotions. It was so fun!

Reflecting back on the day, I realized that had I'd been in the space I used to be (overly ridged and strict with myself in regards to diet and workout), I would have NEVER had been able to survive all that Universe threw at me and my family thus making today's adventure a chore rather than playtime.

It's been a dark road but there's so much light shining in now! I've been deeply healing through ugly shadow work, physical healing through nourishing foods and honoring my animal (my human meat suit) through moon cycle training and movement.

Building and creating systems in your life gives you the freedom to gracefully navigate the seasons of life. I've worked relentlessly over the past 2 years cutting out and releasing all that wasn't serving and I'm still going. It feels so freeing to be able to not relying on harsh coping mechanisms such as junk food and alcohol. And alleviating the torment, guilt and pain of self destruction through negative self talk.

Health and wellness go so much deeper than a "exercise and diet plan". It's below at a soul level.

This is where my heart lies. It's a dark road when you're looking for your light, so let me hold that space for you. 💖

14/01/2022

Happy birthday to my bright little star! 🥳🌠

You truly have a warrior's heart with a tender spirit. You bring so much light to our family and to the world.

We've had to navigate some deep polarizing emotions this birthday but you have shown everyone how to do it with love and style!

May The Moon always be your compass,
The Sun to give you protection.
May The Water always give you peace and refreshment,
The Earth to give you firm grounding.
May The Air be always under your wings,
And The Fire to burn deep and bright in your belly.

You always leave me in awe and wonder as well as fits of laughter! Burn brightly my son! 🌞

🎉

28/12/2021

Happy Solstice, Merry Christmas and happy holidays to you and your family! ☃️🎄

I hope this time has been filled to the brim with magick of all kinds and left you feeling like my pup here, snuggly and in pure bliss!

Take some time this week to sit in the silence of your soul and really flesh out your desires and manifestations for the upcoming new year. I really feel it's going to be quite the badass year, so remember to slow down to gear up. I keep getting the vision of a huge sling shot, so get ready!

I'm curious what you're pulling in for next year? Inquiring minds needs to know, so drop it below! (See what I did there? 😏🤣)

Wishing you all the joy and bliss your soul can take in before we launch into sheer awesome! 💕🌠

19/12/2021

So much beautiful energy coming from this Cold Full Moon in Gemini! 🌕

Full moons are a representation of the harvest of the seeds planted at the New Moon and are a time of fullness of light. Also, each full moon has it's own unique flavor as it's influenced by the month and the zodiac sign it's traveling through.

This December moon is called the Cold Moon in the modern sense and is traveling through the sign of Gemini. The Cold moon represents the coldness and deep darkness of winter with faith the light will return. While Gemini is related to new experiences and learning. It's truly a magickal time when you being to see it!

As women, we are called to follow and dance with the Moon and her ever changing phases, but current culture and society has separated us from that sacred connection. Our overflowing schedules, rigid fitness plans, and intense demands block the body from honoring the flexibility to slow down when needed. There are time for sowing and harvest and it's time to rediscover that balance.

For most women, they cycle with the New Moon and ovulate with the Full Moon. The time of ovulation is when hormones are at the peak and you feel like taking on the world. That is the time when you should be going after PR's in the gym or a high intensity workout!

For others, such as myself, the opposite is true. The New Moon means ovulation and the Full Moon brings your cycle. So the Full Moon is a time for REST because hormone levels are in the valley. Definitely no gas in the tank for PR's!

With a workout plan, these influences matter in the journey! Knowing where you're at in your cycle is giving you a inside look on how to leverage these fluctuations to your advantage.

With the year coming to a close, many are beginning to think about "New Year, new me" gym/fitness resolutions, but most do the same as years before with unmet goals by March and back slide into the same old patterns. Rinse and repeat.

I don't mean to sound brash and bleak, but I encourage you all to think about looking at things from a different angle and look to build something completely unique to YOU.

This is what I love to help women build! So let's create some magick! ✨

06/12/2021

Happy Monday! Here's a fun little visualization meditation for you! 🌄

Ground yourself into your body, close your eyes and deep belly breathe for 3-4 counts. You see a child about 5 yr old standing at the base of a huge hill. Take note of how the child looks. Now notice that this child is you.
The hill you face is big, scary but thrilling. Feel the rush as you get into a running start position, the top is the goal, breathe into the feel of the grass and dirt under your hands and feet,. Now.... GO!

You see yourself grabbing at the grass and rocks as your little feet propel you upward. As you are scaling, did you slip? Fall and tumble down a ways? Did you pop back up like a wack-a-mole and keep going? Or stop and rest? The trek continues with the peak almost in reach. Did you slip again? Fall? Need a break? Are you laughing and crying at the same time?

At last you reached the peak! Over looking a breath-taking valley or ocean, now turn and look back on your path up, taking note of all you endured. Allow any emotions to come up. Gently move your body and open your eyes.
Journal your experience. Any negative things pop up, like over bearing parents or teasing kids? Make note of all the emotions, good or bad. You can take it deeper by asking your inner child what is needed for the day.

How did you respond to the slips and falls? Adults tend to get really get vicious with themselves, kids not so much. This is caused from an unchecked ego and wounded inner child. I see this ego really come out when people, especially women, take on a new fitness plan.

I was exactly that. Allowing a over-driven ego to plow straight over my poor inner child. It's taken a lot of deep yucky shadow work to put the ego in the backseat where it belongs and soothe the inner child. This is the real heavy lifting!

This type of deep shadow work is a key component in the 12 week journey I'm launching in January. It requires a lot of space, nurturing, nourishment and love not found in a typical fitness plan, yet I feel and know it's vital.

This journey isn't going to be for everyone but if you're feel a nudge, DM me and let's chat! You'll be the first to know details and when it drops! ✨

04/12/2021

Who's ready to turn their backs on 2021?! 🤣🙋‍♀️

All kidding aside, as friggin' hard 2021 was with deep healing and shadow work it was amazing and changing! I deeply know that 2022 will bring about the seeds that were planted from all this work. 🌱

December marks a time of closing out cycles and releasing what doesn't serve. It's a time of inward darkness with the faith the light will return. This December is an exceptionally special one because so many are closing out full books, not just mere chapters.

I'm definitely feeling the shift! It's exciting and scary but there's a beautiful peace to it all. One book I feel that is closing is the toxic relationship with my human. Lifetimes of destructive talk and actions, as well as generational wounds, are being healed and transmuted.

This photo is from the first competition I did back in 2019, it was the apex of the last layer being ripped off to reveal what the true root of so many deep wounds lay.

I. BROKE. MYSELF.

Thus this experience sent me on a 2 year healing journey of body and soul. What came out of it was a deep reverence and understanding between Mother Moon, the female form and how it ties into physical fitness. *SPOILER, it's so much more than working out and restricting calories!

Out of my brokenness came a fiery passion to show women there is a more honoring way to your fitness that's aligned with your intuition, nourishing and makes you feel like a f* QUEEN!

I'm in the midst of cultivating a 12 week magickal journey for a band of woman warriors ready to try a different path. One of deep honor and love for the female vessel. It's flowing and I'm excited and terrified but another book that's closing for me is playing it small.

I'm looking at beginning it with the New Moon in January, so be on the look out for details! I can already feel the energy of the women that will walk the path and it sends all the chills and tears. I seriously can't wait! 💖

01/12/2021

After a nice long hiatus from social, I'm back! Hello to the new faces joining me on this journey and hello again to the OG's!

So who the hell am I? First off, I'm a ton of star dust wrapped into a tiny package that has chosen so many experiences. (Ooo! Fun spoiler, you are too!)

Current experiences include wife, mama of 2 beautiful souls, furmama, and rebel. I enjoy challenging the "normal", getting lost in nature, bury myself deep into a good book, learning other's experiences and having a damn good time in whatever I'm doing.

At my core there's a salty old soul that has chosen some hard experiences for collective and individual healing to bring about a new shift in how we care and treat our animal skin or human.

Those experiences came in the form of abuse from the ego, skewed programming and conditioning. My soul was cut from my intuition and my body. A ruthless internal narrative that drove my so called "fitness path" that lead to harsh eating patterns and chronic gym abuse.

To the outsider, I appeared "amazing" and "fit" but inside there was a deeply wounded goddess. Talk about major Stockholm syndrome! These negative thought patterns manifested as panic attacks, major depression, GI issues, mood disorders just to name a few. My intuition was screaming something was horribly wrong but these symptoms always flew under the radar as "normal" and dismissed.

Everything came to a head in 2019 when I took on my first bodybuilding competition. Even though I did it as healthy as I could, the weight of abusive ego BROKE me. It's been a long journey of deep shadow work and healing but it was all needed to uncover this message my soul has to share.

Out of the ashes, I'm here to share that there is another way, to fitness and health. I've been playing small by guiding a select few clients with success but the message is getting too loud for the little stage. So buckle up, it's time to get loud!

14/09/2021

My sweet baby girl is 12 today!! 🥳🥳

I'm sitting here joyfully wrapping gifts and preparing for a evening of celebrating, my heart couldn't be more full!

Then I realize, she's 12 now... No longer a child and stepping into a young lady. ::cue ALL the tears::

May the Moon always be your compass,
The Sun to give you protection.
May The Water always give you peace and refreshment,
The Earth to give you firm grounding.
May The Air be always under your wings,
And The Fire to burn deep and bright in your belly.

I love you my sweet firecracker and can't wait to see how you burn the world down. 🔥💖✨

09/09/2021

I lost followers.. F& #$ YEAH! 🔥🔥🔥

Ego used to lead me to believe that I needed to be everything to everyone. I lead with this lie when I first started guiding others in fitness, which proved to be a big mistake.

Now, I've FINALLY fully shed that lie and started speaking MY truth and guess what, ::gasp:: it's not for everyone! This would have meant death for me, but now I'm pumped!

This means there's more room for those I'm for. The souls that are meant to be with me and I with them.

I'm for the woman that craves a different definition of what training "should look like" and pour on self love that runs deeps.

I'm for the mother that longs to fall back in love with their body and reconnect to their inner warrior.

I'm for the female lightworker who needs to replenish and strengthen their body and soul.

I'm the priestess that leads women on a journey back to their true self by redefining and reconnecting body to soul.

Am I the priestess for you?

02/09/2021

I 👏 REFUSE 👏 TO 👏BE 👏 PUT 👏 IN 👏 A 👏 BOX!

In my quest to create this "brand", I've been forcing myself to fit into a box, a label, causing straight chaos in my soul. I've always been described as someone that can't labeled, so why the hell am I trying to put something on that shouldn't fit?! So here I am!

I am a multifaceted soul and no longer am I hiding.

I am the light and the dark. The feminine and the masculine

I am the kindness soul but could make the saltiest sailor blush

One day is all sparkles and unicorns and the next destruction and brimstone

Point of this is, I am ALL and I refuse to hide the things "that don't fit". Truth is it all fits. So get ready for things to "be out of place".

And guess what? YOU ARE A MULTIFACETED SOUL TOO!

Give yourself the freedom and space to allow all facets of your soul show. F*$ # that "good vibes only" 💩 Embrace all vibes (dark and light), for they are all energy given for a purpose. Follow your intuition, it's your ultimate guide.

I love to gift this space for my clients as they reconnect their soul (spirit) to the animal (the body) and learn to trust their intuition as they take on new health goals. It's truly a beautiful thing to witness!

So walk into this weekend taking some bold new steps embracing the things that you hide. The alchemy you will create is incredible! ✨

30/08/2021

Ladies, do you listen to the pause? 🌑

The pause I'm referring to is your "moon time" or menstrual period. Gasp! I'm talking about the most hated and misunderstood topic, WHY!?

Culture has many women believing that this is something that should stay hidden and chastised. A monthly burden that causes huge life disruptions. But, I found a different point of view.

In my journey of regaining my cycle after my bodybuilding competition, I discovered this beautiful pause is a gift of reconnection. Our ancestors respected the deep significance and it's time to reclaim this sacred cycle.

As women, our physical bodies follow the cycles of the moon with phases of waxing and waning. Men, on the other hand, follow the sun with it's ever steading rising and setting.

The shadow masculine has been dominate in this world, forcing it's rising and setting phases on the feminine thus denouncing the feminine phases of waxing and waning.

As the feminine begins to rise in our world, we must return honor to these phases. Our moon time is an invitation of rest, solitude and retreat while our hormones are at an all time low.

This is not the time to hit PR's in the gym, run your best time or do the most intense HIIT workout. You might be able to push your body, but at the cost of burnout and inadequate energy.

I encourage you to accept the invitation of rest during your moon time. Do something kind for your body like enjoy a dreamy bath or sit in nature. See how your soul and body begin to refresh and breathe.

I schedule these "breaks" for my clients in their programs. It feels strange to them at first, but they see the value in rest. They are able to give more to themselves in the duration of their program and are more able to quicker results.

I enjoy washing my hair and sitting in nature during mine. How do you rest during your moon time? 🌙

Power At Will Fitness