26/07/2024
Yesterday my beloved sister Jutta passed peacefully into the light. She was 76 years old. Sepsis had poisoned her blood. I stayed in Germany for six week, holding her hand while she was fighting for her life at the intensive care unit at University hospital in Cologne. She was mostly asleep/deeply sedated. A few times she woke up and we could connect for short moments on that deep soul level that sisters can. We said our good byes before I left with a heavy heart, knowing then that a recovery would be a miracle. She always has been my BIG sister, once rescuing me from drowning, and later in life always making sure I was ok. She gifted me the left over inheritance from our mom so I could buy the property in HPP and build the little home Andy and I still live in. When my old car broke down, she sent me the money to buy a brand new Toyota Yaris, that lasted me for many years. Since my mom passed in 2001 we had a standing phone date every Saturday morning, hardly ever missed in all those 23 years. In our twenties we had our little adventures in Paris and Spain. She became a successful travel agent and settled on Mallorca, where she bought herself a beautiful condo right in Palma with view of the Mediterranean. There she met her husband Horst, who is now left behind. They settled in Cologne, his home town, where she, beside her busy job, took care of Horst's mother and later, also of our mom, who she relocated from Hamburg to a cozy Apartment right around the corner from her own place. Every night she brought my mom over to her place where she prepared dinner for everybody. She always was an extroverted, the opposite of me, was fluent in many languages, English, Spanish, and French She was an excellent communicator and besides her busy life always found time for her old friends. She was very loyal and kept in touch with old school friends throughout her life. Although she had her own physical issues, she never complained and always had a smile for everybody. I will terribly miss her and our Saturday phone calls.
She came to me this morning. She looked stunning, and was glowing with her beautiful blue green eyes that had sparkles of amber, emerald, sapphire and gold. She smiled, I started crying, and she said "O stop it and eat your funny soup". She had always joked about my "rabbit food". We have been asa different as sister could be. Our mom had always joked, that when she would visit my sister, they would search through the shops and department stores for deals (always found great ones). While visiting me, she would have to walk with me and my dog in the forest or around the "Krumme Lanke" in Berlin. I was the quiet one, while Jutta was the lively one, but despite our opposite personalities and life styles there always was a flow of love between our hearts... and that will never change. I know you are only a veil away, close but far, I know and feel your lightness and your joy but I can't help feeling terribly sad.
