14/06/2025
I'm in the most fascinating space I've ever been in in my life.
A space where I see everything so clearly.
My spiritual connection, my curiosity and tenacity to find answers all from within myself.
I see the lineage of my souls journey and why I've experienced the things I have.
I see clearly there's no one else to blame, it's all been within me.
It always was and it always will be whenever I go into that self and soul inquiry.
This is the power of the mirror.
When you see that what you're experiencing isn't because of someone else.
It's because of what's inside of you.
We all have darkness and light.
It's in going to the depths of your shadow where you can you fully step into your light.
Being brave enough to go there and sit in the uncomfortable. The complete discomfort of it.
Allowing it to rise within you to reveal what it needs to so you can be shown the way and free from all attachments.
The soul has many forms of attachments which lie within our unconscious.
We can't even see them consciously, we have to dig deep into the subconscious and then dive into the unconscious to have the full realisation that leads to actualisation.
To know thyself which leads us into a journey of self actualisation and for those who are ready to go to the next level after this, which is soul actualisation.
Where you see how your soul is interwoven into the sacred tapestry of everything.
How everything is connected.
You see your souls journey so clearly, the wounds, the pain, the hurt, the harm, the destruction, the abdonemnt of self through not choosing you time and time again.
No one is to blame for this.
This is me doing this to me to learn the significance of each and every lesson I have experienced here.
I've seen where I've hurt myself, harmed myself, hidden myself, abdoned myself, rejected myself.
All of it to lead me here to see the mirror in everything so clearly.
In a full circle completion.
This past year has been extremely hard, having to go to these depths of self and not fully knowing why.
All I knew was that it was important and significant for me to follow where I was being guided to go with my healing journey.
It lead me to step back from my work, my passion, those closest to me.
It allowed me to create separation from the outside world to go into my inner world. To isolate and know I was safe to go where I needed to go which was into a huge death and rebirth.
Death of the old self rooted firmly in the ego because it was safe, it was familiar, it was protective.
What I didn't realise though was that it was holding on tightly to the darkness and sadness within me.
I've always felt like I had this eternal sadness within that I just couldn't explain. I found it difficult to be in joy, to receive praise or to know what real love looks and feels like because I was rooted strongly in my inner world darkness without even realising it.
This past year has been huge through all this healing. It's taken a full year to come full circle and see it all clearly.
Why I have been lead there, why now was the time because I was finally ready to recognise and release all of this and let it go knowing it's preparing me for my next level of awakening.
Awakening deeper into self and to my soul.
My beautiful soul that has been through many journeys and lifetimes carrying a lot of this fragmented delusion within me.
It's been in the darkness that I have finally found the magic.
The magic of the extraordinary all around me.
The eyes I have now see how the universe works with it's endless magic and miracles coming through in the constant way everything is being communicated to me.
The way I'm guided through my intuition and being able to read and see the signs in the everyday moment.
It's the moment we shift from creator to orchestrator when we transend from self into the soul, when we see all that is so clearly right in front of our eyes.
Carl jung always said this and it's one of my favourite quotes that I became ever so curious with so that I could see it too what he saw and knew...
"Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those who have the eyes to see."
It's so true, so sit back like I did and watch in the power of the pause how everything is unfolding in the becoming. How the universe is in constant communication with you all of the time. There are no random occurrences ever, everything is leading you to something, it's up to us where we choose to go and follow.
If we choose the magic and love in the everyday, it'll be ever present for us to experience.
It's all about the lens we see with and how important the healing journey is to clear that lens so it's not entwined in the entanglement of it, rather liberated from it so you can finally breath into the deep exhale of life. Allowing your life force energy and sovereignity to fully return home to you and within you.
It's been in the power of the pause that all these revelations have come to me, the stillness through the inner chaos of what the healing journey can evoke not being afraid to go there and sit with it, to surrender to it and allow it to all unfold within me and around me.
That's the alchemy, turning your pain into power, your presence into a blessing, your magic into gold.
It's there for all of us to witness and experience in it's entirety in....
The unfolding and the becoming.
Pure magic and alchemy available to everyone willing to go there to the depths of your soul and liberate yourself completely into eternal life.
