18/11/2025
Hi guys ♡
I sent over a picture of how much I bled this past Friday night to my IR doctor/NP a couple of nights ago.. My Mom had wisely taken a picture of the scene once the situation was under control. In the image, there were literally pools of blood on my bedroom rug, one extremely large in size. When they saw how much I had bled out, my Dr. wanted to see me in person himself (originally I was coming in to see my NP for a deep cleanse of the wounds). After he finished up with his 2 cases of the day, he came and helped work on the wounds for over 2 hours to try and halt the bleeding. As usual, he shoots, he scores. I have barely had any bleeding since last night, a bit of oozing but nothing anywhere near as voluminous as the past week and a half. I am in a great deal of pain today, but it's so beyond worth it to have piece of mind that everything is going to be ok. I've been so scared for the past couple of weeks and have barely been able to sleep. Last night, however, I slept with extreme ease. ♡
However, that is not to say the problem is eradicated; the large wounds still have some healing to do, and there is still a chance a bleed out could happen at anytime. Because of this, I have to lay low. If I go out somewhere, I need to have someone with me at all times.
Before my Dr. worked on me last night, I had bloodwork done to test my hemoglobin. It is currently an 8.6, which means I have dropped a full 2 points in just 2 weeks (it was last tested on the day I was discharged from the hospital). I feel so incredibly week and like the life has been sucked out of me when I stand, but I am stubborn and am trying to push myself to be as active as my body will alow. My IR team wants me to reach out to my P*P to see if she can set up an iron or blood transfusion (which I am literally doing as soon as I finish writing this).
Between the low hemoglobin, the residual pain from the operation itself, and the discomfort stemming from yesterday's work, I feel like I have been hit by a bus. In times like these, I practice gratitude and think of all of the immense blessings in my life. There is so much good, and that in itself counts for so much more than my temporal struggles. To be alive to feel pain is a blessing in itself, so I am grateful for that.
I am also grateful to have the most amazing doctor (along with his NP) that truly care; my doctor was kind enough to do this for me after already having done 2 long procedures thay day. I admire his work ethic greatly.
Also, I had Mom and Dad with me every step of the way yesterday, as per usual. I don't even want to imagine what going through any of this without them would be like. They are my since day 1 crew. ♡ Anyway, for now, I am going to make the best out of life and enjoy each day I am fortunate enough to inhabit this earth.
Below are some pictures from yesterday. I am trying to document as much of my journey on here as possible. I think it is important to show both the highs and lows of having a chronic illness.
Thank you so much for all of your well wishes and for the perpetual support. ♡
All my love,
Ari