06/08/2025
I've realised not alot of people are aware of my journey to the sounds so I've written down for you all to read please do share your thoughts with me
Blog One: The Morning I Chose to Stay
Alchemy of Sound: A Journey from Silence to Song
There are moments in life when the world feels unbearably loud, yet inside, all is silent. That was the landscape of my mind on Friday, 1st November 2024. A day I had quietly marked as my last. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts had become constant companions. I had grown tired of the weight, tired of pretending, tired of surviving.
That morning, I attended a sound bath hosted by Debbi Walker . I didn’t go with hope. I went for a kind of farewell. I thought it might offer a brief respite before I returned home to do the unthinkable. I wasn’t seeking healing. I wasn’t seeking anything at all.
But something ancient and primal stirred.
As the instruments began to sing, I felt a shift. Not in my mind, but in something deeper, something primal. The resonance of each sound seemed to peel away layers of anguish. It wasn’t dramatic or immediate. It was subtle, like mist lifting from a field at dawn. The gongs, the bowls, the chimes, they didn’t just play. They spoke. And somehow, my soul recognised them
It was as if my soul had been waiting for this conversation.
In that meditative state, I felt stripped of pain. Not erased, but softened. What remained was my soul my essence. And my soul knew these sounds. They were kin. They were memory. They were medicine.
When I returned to the room, I didn’t come back as the same person. I came back with a want. A need. To live. I had tears streaming down my cheeks and a lightness thatd id forgotten one could feel
That morning didn’t fix everything. But it cracked something open. It gave me a thread to follow. And I’ve been following it ever since, through ritual, through resonance, through the alchemy of sound.
This journey is not linear. It spirals, it dips, it soars. But it is mine. And it began with a single vibration that reminded me I was still here. That I could still choose.
And I did.
There are more parts to this journey that I will share
With love and gratitude
Cam
Alchemy of Sound
