09/09/2022
A couple of decades ago this was me. I suffered with anxiety, deeply held beliefs of self-judgment and a load of blame. I blamed everyone else for my anger, anxiety, and emotional suffering. It was especially challenging for me because I did not believe I could be helped. I didn’t believe I could trust anyone with my heart, and I protected myself to the point of isolation.
This kept me frozen in a time-warped, painful, stunted place. There was always a small, teeny tiny part of me that desperately wanted a different kind of life and another part of me that felt like it was me against the world forever.
So, I took that teeny tiny desperate part of me on a healing journey. I set out to crack the formulas for emotional freedom, confidence, security, kindness, love, compassion, clarity, and connection. I wanted this for myself, and the people I wanted to love without disappearing, pressing, or pushing them.
What I learned and what I found blew me away. For me to create a life of present, available, loving, compassionate people I had to have the courage to be all that myself. Today I am that. I am all that because I focused on the right things. To deepen my knowledge of myself, to be who I am in this life, what it means to be alive and loving, to be here, to be me.
When your life becomes more important than your privacy you find love in all the right places.