25/07/2025
One Decision That Shifted Everything
By 2010, something in me started quietly reaching for more.
I had a laptop that could play DVDs, and every now and then, I’d do a yoga class in my bedroom.
And it made me feel… different.
Not fixed.
But softer. Calmer. More me.
Eventually, I decided to try Bikram yoga again.
And this time, it stuck.
I committed to twice a week.
Every Tuesday and Friday evening after work,
90 minutes on the mat. Just me.
It was bliss.
The thing about yoga is, it changes you from the inside out.
But when you’re still living unconsciously,
those internal shifts don’t always look “graceful.”
For me, they came out as outbursts. Breakups. Walkouts.
Even what I now call tower moments - sudden endings and dramatic exits.
I wasn’t mature enough yet to navigate the change softly,
so I did what I’d always done
I let things fall away completely.
I changed jobs.
Moved house.
Fell away from old friends.
Made a few new ones.
But also, for the first time, I started spending more time alone.
And I liked it.
After practicing Bikram consistently for about a year,
so much had shifted inside me.
I was still working a job that didn’t fulfill me, it paid the bills, but it left me empty.
And I could feel this deep sense of not being satisfied anymore.
I didn’t know what I truly wanted.
The only thing I knew I liked, the only thing that made me feel “normal” - was yoga.
And then one night,
standing in front of the mirror at the studio,
I had a single thought.
I should be a yoga teacher.
And just like that,
one decision changed the direction of my life for years to come.
Is this the happy-ever-after chapter?
Ha… not even close.
But it was the start of something.
Stay tuned. 🌸🤍
