20/07/2025
As I sit here, with kids crawling all over me, the house a mess - even though I cleaned it all yesterday, hearing mum more times than I can count, I wonder where I lost myself.
Was it during baby number one? Or number two? Or had I lost myself before kids even came into the picture?
My hair is curly... The worst post partum hair loss I've experienced and bags under my eyes. The girl who used to have straight hair all the time with the sparkle in her eyes... That's well and truly dulled now.
I have been awake many times during the night for over 4 years now, with only 1 actual sleep in whilst the kids got minded by someone else.
Every morning I am the main parent up, feeding the children, playing with them, entertaining them whilst the rest of the house sleeps
I am literally a shell of a person. I have no life in me. So this is my rock bottom.. I don't think I can go any further than this. So now it's time to climb back up, get my shine back, my pink, my smile and laughter. To feel better from the inside out.
So let's do this. Let's get the colour back and be the best version of myself, whilst doing the best that I can, with what I have!
Here's to financial stability, here's to a healthier mindset and physical body. Here's to smiling more than I'm yawning! Here's to being me again!!
