22/11/2025
Can you relate to these words?
🙏🏼🦋💕
It took me a long time to understand myself clearly, but I finally uncovered the root of what people call my “toxicity.”
It isn’t anger. It isn’t attitude.
It’s disrespect.
I can be peaceful, warm, and effortless to be around. I can match any energy, build with anyone, and laugh my way through most moments. But the instant I feel disrespected—even slightly—something in me shuts down. My calm turns into caution, my softness turns into steel, and the quiet part of me that just wants harmony disappears behind the need to protect myself.
And the truth is… I know I’m a good person.
I know my heart.
I know how much love, understanding, patience, and sincerity I pour into people. I give grace even when it costs me pieces of myself. That’s why disrespect feels like a punch to the soul—because I know how hard I try before I ever reach my breaking point.
People think I “snap” out of nowhere, but my reaction is never random.
It’s a mirror.
It’s the reflection of the energy I’ve been given.
But I’m learning.
Learning that I don’t have to let someone else’s behavior drag me out of my character.
Learning that silence can be stronger than any comeback.
Learning that peace is sometimes choosing not to prove anything to anyone.
Learning that maturity is knowing when to walk away instead of exploding.
Growth isn’t about pretending you’re unbothered.
It’s about understanding your triggers, acknowledging your limits, and protecting your spirit before someone pushes you too far.
So I’m choosing myself now.
Choosing peace over reaction.
Distance over chaos.
Self-respect over forced connections.
Know what wounds you.
Guard your energy like your life depends on it.
And never stay in places, with people, or in situations that force you to become the version of yourself you fought so hard to rise above.
