16/07/2020
Little meditations - I want...
We are told by many traditions of that desire or craving is the root of all suffering. We often make the mistake of thinking it is the things we desire that are the problem, however it is really the state of desiring or craving that causes us suffering and affects our decision making. Food, s*x, money etc., are not in themselves causes of suffering but being driven by the desire for them causes all manner of misery and discontent.
A little meditation can help us understand how that functions in our life. I like to do this at night when I am laying in bed getting ready to go to sleep.
Simply say 'I want', silently in your mind or quietly out loud a number of times and notice how it makes you feel. Once you have established that, consciously relinquish the whole experience of wanting. Rather than say 'I don't want' simply let go of the whole concept of wanting. In my practice I find it doesn't take long before I just want to lay there peacefully and am completely dissatisfied with the driven and discontented state of wanting. So I just lay there content with that very moment, the past is gone and the future isn't real.
I like to reflect on the story of St Anthony, one of the Desert Fathers of the early Christian Church. He was pestered to visit Alexandria by the bishop. When he got there the bishop showed him the great new cathedral and told him of the wealth the church had gained since it became the religion of the Roman Empire.
On hearing this St Anthony said "Wealth? What is wealth?"
The bishop replied, "Wealth is when you can have anything you want."
"Ahhh..." said St Anthony, "Thank you bishop, I understand. So if I want nothing then I am wealthy." And he promptly returned to the desert.