21/01/2022
A relationship is made up of two strangers who, over time, grow to become familiar with one another. Each person comes into the relationship with their own unique experiences from childhood and previous relationships. It is through these experiences that an individual learns to make sense of themselves and the world around them.
A relationship can be adversely impacted by experience and expectations if a person carries a wound into the relationship. For example, if you or your partner has experienced a betrayal in the past, a wound of mistrust has been created. Without healing, they may expect to be betrayed again. This expectation becomes a lens through which they interpret situations.
For example, if a return phone call is delayed, they may immediately interpret the reason for the delay to be that their partner is having an affair (an act of betrayal). This triggers past feelings of pain, panic, and inadequacy. To quell the painful emotions and create a sense of safety they may employ safety-seeking behaviours. This could be: preemptively ending the relationship, becoming physically sick, withdrawing from the relationship (ghosting their partner for hours/days), finding faults with their partner or the relationship, or they may be tempted to betray their partner.
Safety-seeking behaviours vary. Others are: lying/hiding information, stalking on social media, yelling/blaming, people-pleasing, controlling, over/under eating, over/under working, excessive reassurance-seeking or need for physical intimacy etc.
With compassion, we can begin to understand that safety-seeking behaviours are self-protective defense mechanisms designed to keep that person safe. It is likely that these behaviours kept them safe in childhood but now are preventing them from developing an intimate adult connection.
In order to heal, we need to experience the opposite of what hurt us. By experiencing the opposite of a wound (the opposite may be connection/acceptance), we create a relative expectation of the world. It is from here that we can begin to enjoy and sustain quality relationships.
Growing from past experiences can be painful. Consider engaging a therapist for support.