11/07/2025
I ALWAYS KNEW...š
I always knew I would have the most amazing life.
It didnāt make sense at the time. Not as a little girl, a teenager or a young adult. Not when I sat in classrooms struggling to keep up, staring out the window while the other kids answered questions I didnāt even understand. Not when teachers gave up on me or when I started to believe maybe I wasnāt smart, maybe I wasnāt anything.
But somewhere, deep downāunderneath the fear, the confusion, and the silenceāI knew there was more waiting for me. I could feel it like a pulse in my chest: one day, this will all be behind you.
I grew up carrying those invisible wounds. And for a long time, I didnāt realize how heavy they were. So when I found someone who said he loved meāwho said all the right things at firstāI thought maybe that was the beginning of the āamazingā I had always believed in..It wasnāt.
What started as love turned slowly into something elseāsomething much darker. I lost myself slowly, quietly. I forgot how to breathe without permission.
But that little voiceāthat stubborn, resilient whisper that had carried me through childhoodāit never left. It was faint some days, almost gone. But it was still there. Still whispering:
You were made for more than this.
And one dayā¦ a week before my 18th birthday, whilst sitting in a jail cell, I believed it enough to leave.
Even though I was scared. Even though I didnāt know what came next. I left.
The road after that wasnāt easy. Healing doesnāt happen all at once. Trust doesnāt come back overnight. But I kept walking. I rebuilt myselfāpiece by piece, scar by scar. I started to believe in that little voice again, and slowly, I began to believe in myself.
And thenāwhen I wasnāt looking for it, when I had finally stopped needing to be savedāI found love. Real love. Safe love. The kind that doesnāt raise its voice to be heard. The kind that sees every broken part of you and doesnāt flinch. The kind that stays.
Today, Iām happily married to the man who proved me right: that I would have an amazing life. We have Three wanderlust childrenābright, beautiful, loud little souls who donāt have to grow up in fear. They get to be Worldschooled and feel Safe.
