30/03/2026
Lesson 2622
FML.
I was on retreat.
Seventeen women.
Connection, laughter, everything we had all been looking forward to.
And then my body said, absolutely not.
Rash.
Headache.
Fever.
A sore throat that feels like glass.
A rash that actually hurts.
Next thing I know, Matt is driving to come get me.
Packing up early.
Leaving everything behind.
And now…
I’ve been in hospital, in isolation, since Sunday.
Waiting.
Testing.
Wondering if it’s measles. Wondering if it's Dengue Fever.
Knowing that seventeen women are now probably worried because of me.
That part sits heavy.
No teaching.
No yoga.
No Hypnotherapy.
Just… nothing.
A full stop I didn’t choose.
There’s something confronting about being forced to stop like this.
Not a gentle nudge.
Not a “maybe take a rest.”
A full body shutdown that pulls you completely out of your life.
And honestly…
FML.
But also…
There’s nowhere to run in moments like this.
No pushing through.
No pretending you’re fine.
Just you.
Your body.
And the reality of what is.
Not the polished version.
Not the “I’ve got this” version.
The real one.
The uncomfortable one.
The one that asks you to surrender when you really don’t want to.
Alison
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