The Frustrated Mechanic

13/10/2025

For anyone that is struggling please give Petra a go. She's helped me immensely.

05/10/2025

Let's have a chat about the pressures men put on themselves, the job, the family, the kids, the list goes on and on.
This was the position I got myself into just over 2 years ago.
Working multiple jobs without a day off to stay afloat, dealing with allegations of how my kids were treated while I worked long hours.
Being constantly told I'm wrong or not good enough, having my boundaries constantly disrespected cause I was too tired, exhausted and depressed to fight.
The point that broke me and ended me up here was being advised to go to court and having the lot turn around on me, losing the property, getting told I was the bad guy.
I knew it wasn't correct or just but I had no fight left in me at that point.
I'd potentially had a heart attack at work, my father had cancer and my priorities shifted.
I'm not ashamed to admit that I've cried so many tears over how I was treated and how my kids were treated.
The last couple of years have been about rebuilding my self worth, looking after my kids and relearning boundaries.
To build up strong and confident sons that won't put up with someone just because they want a relationship.
To learn how to speak respectfully, especially when its difficult to do so.
To set and enforce their boundaries.
We often just keep going cause somewhere we were led to believe that the working man that never stops must be the strong one.
The reality is often that he's the man that is broken and burnt out and has never been taught how to do anything differently.
If you've made it this far, I hope you never get to a point of broken that you're being helped out of a machine clutching your chest cause you're afraid to ask for help.
I hope you can find a wonderful therapist, as I have, to be a safe space and relearn how to put yourself first again.
I no longer care what anyone says about me, I have a huge heart and will help anyone where I can, the strength comes from knowing it's my choice to accept someone's energy.
Don't ever be afraid to ask for help, there are too many people that die every week because they are afraid to ask.
Yes it hurts, yes it's uncomfortable, yes it will take change on your part too, lots of learning and undoing many beliefs.
The outcome however, is certainly worth the journey.
Thanks for reading and coming along my journey.

01/10/2025

Sometimes we are going through so much s**t in life and we feel that no one understands.
Sometimes there are more people that understand than we think.

26/09/2025

25/09/2025

Thoughts from the mower......

Who has said things like I'll stay in this situation because.......
Or, I'll stay here cause I'm strong enough to not let it bother me......
Or, it's fine cause if I work harder they'll finally see how good of a man/ person I am.
Yeah........almost 20 years of my life......

The journey of finding and rebuilding our self worth is not an easy one.
The anxiety and the loneliness can drive us back to old patterns, but somewhere through the journey we get to a point where everything shifts. The goal is suddenly greater than the opinions of others.
This is a great point to get to and I hope everyone has the guts to try.
Have a fantastic week.

24/09/2025

21/09/2025

The process of healing after abuse takes patience and time. It's something that can't be forced.
The mistrust and coping mechanisms that come from being gaslit and abused for years is something we have to come to terms with, our own behaviours can end up inconsistent as we cower to the thought of the incoming rant.
We often don't even realise until after we loose someone we genuinely care about.
Through this process we all have a simple choice....become a perpetual victim or get better.

Through a wonderful counsellor I've got a great grip on my triggers, and am aware of the ones that still pop up occasionally.
This is the first time in many years that I can genuinely say I'm proud of myself and I have the ability to say no to things that don't serve my happiness.
I really hope for anyone that is currently in or has previously been in an abusive relationship that you can find the support and strength to rediscover your self worth and do what is necessary to be happy.
There hasn't been much support for men that are in these situations, and yes I found that out the hard way, but its changing.
It's not a weakness to admit you're being abused and to seek assistance.
I hope my journey helps someone.
Have a fantastic week.

21/07/2025

I'd like to be a little candid for a moment.
I have been a little quiet here while I deal with a few personal issues.
But being quiet about my mental health struggles and my own journey isn't why I started this page.
The only way to fix things is to be open about them, so here goes.
I was the kid that could help everyone but never had the self worth or courage to fix myself.
This manifested over my life as attracting narcissistic partners because I didn't believe I deserved to be treated better, and if I worked harder they'd finally treat me right.
Taking on work until I was so overwhelmed that I didn't enjoy anything.
Over my life I've been grumpy and inattentive because I didn't know how to deal with the things going on in my head.
I used terms for my self like not worthy or I'm just a f**k up, always searching for validation.
With help I'm learning how to feel worthy of happiness and a loving safe partner. For now I'm working on me and to get rid of the self sabotaging thoughts that have held me back for so long.
I won't pretend to have the expertise to help everyone else but if by sharing a little of me it let's someone else share what's in their own head then it's still worth it.
Plus I've found an amazing therapist after finding other avenues useless if anyone needs.

Life is sometimes about putting one foot in front of the other and having a couple of people near by to say you've got this.
Start with the little goals and have an amazing day.

24/05/2025

Yep, that'll do it.
Broken woodruff key in the flywheel, will get parts next week

12/05/2025

Today I'm struggling mentally.
To be honest I've had these days most of my adult life.
Somewhere as blokes we were taught to take on every responsibility and burden alone.
It's simply killing blokes from either not being able to speak or feeling embarrassed to speak.
So while I struggle today I'd like to raise awareness to everyone that might listen so we can start a conversation.
You don't have to do it all alone.
Have a fantastic day

05/05/2025

28/04/2025

Or cause I drive a yank tank 🤣