02/11/2025
I didn’t grow up walking down the path of consciousness, to be real, it was quite the opposite.
If I was to put it blatantly, I’d say it was a path of self destruction.
I didn’t value my body, I didn’t feel the connection with the world. I just chased highs and egotistical wins.
I was a stereotypical white male who loved to party and bit too much. A “masculine” man with a whole bunch of issues I was disguising through this so called masculinity.
I don’t want to say toxic masculinity, because I think from its root, comes a lot of childhood and self worth issues, which unconsciously plays out as “toxic masculinity”.
A lack of education on what masculinity actually is and how to embody that is also a contributor to the lack of it, and a need to fit in that has boys and men behaving in ways in which they have to give up their core self to do so.
This post isn’t about masculinity, nor to say that I’m now a fully healed masculine man, I know the way.
It’s to share that, you have a choice to educate yourself, you have a choice to be different, you have a choice to completely change your life, and you have a choice to walk your own path.
I lead myself down a dark path to come to my awakening, and the path I’ve walked since to a lot of people has made no sense. A lot of the time even to myself. But I kept going. And I keep going. As delusional as it may seem, as “what’s the point” shows up, it’s your perseverance that will get you to where you’ve never been before.
And to the people you love, to the people around you, it may make no sense, you have to keep going. You have to believe in yourself that much that even on the days when you don’t know why you’re bothering to keep going, you keep going.
You aren’t here to settle for less, to settle for what this reality deems as successful. You’re here for more than that. To be a different possibility to the world, and to be true to yourself, to your soul, by choosing to be more of you, and go after the future you know if possible.
Be willing to be seen as crazy, because the only crazy thing really is not choosing to be yourself, is not choosing to go after your dreams. ❤️