21/02/2024
The medicine woman in me...is getting strong.🪶✨️
I have been resisting her for so long.
Felt both ashamed and intimidated by her.
Ashamed out of fear of judgement by others.
Intimidated because of how powerful she is.
For so long I have been afraid of that power.
For so long I didn’t trust it. I didn’t believe that so much wisdom, strength and resilience could reside inside of me.
Until I learnt what it means to be a MOTHER.
Until I grew new LIFE inside of me.
Until I journeyed into the deepest depth of being,
to experience both my own death and rebirth,
as I birthed my son into this world.
Until motherhood pushed me to the very edge of what I thought I was capable of.
Until I was faced with my biggest fears and an avalanche of inherited family trauma, that wanted to surface all at once.
Until I sat with it, surrendered to it, stopped pushing it away, and learned to love and accept ALL parts of me and where I come from.
Until I started listening, TRULY listening.. to the land, the water, and the whispers in the trees.
Until I sat with the plant medicines and received the incredible lessons& healing they are here to share with us.
Until I allowed myself to truly see…. ME.
I am no longer afraid to show this part of me to the world.
I no longer fear the judgment of others, for they can only judge themselves.
The medicine woman inside of me feels finally safe to be SEEN.
She feels finally ready to step out into the world and do the work she came here to do.
The work she has been doing for MANY lifetimes.
She laughs at the “not good enough” stories. And she gives the worried parts of me a loving embrace, telling them “it’s all gonna be alright”.
Ahhhhhh….☺️
How liberating this is.
My soul is taking a deep breath and releasing a big sigh of relief as I write these words.
Followed by another biiiig inhale of excitement for what’s to come. xx
